Pinky. [Sweet]

Here's one of my favorite YouTubers. It's JennisseMakeup. She's awesome with eyeshadow tutorials and she always gives me some new ideas for my makeup. Check Her and she does eyelashes, I did eyelashes for my birthday by myself and her tutorial. It came out pretty good:)

Nippies

Aww, Spring is just round the corner and nothing says it warm outside by getting some nippies and hitting the club. These pasties are reusable and super cute. Here's some pictures of Rihanna rocking them for her new RUDE BOY video. It's sad thats she is the only one taking necessary risks.

They sell them at bristols6 I suggest you buy them before the fad starts.

Fuck Money.

Welp. Money got in the way of people's dream more than it helps. Anything you want to pursue you can't because money stops you.

How many times have you wanted to do something and can't because you didn't have enough money?

Been denied countless amounts of things because you didn't have the enough of it, you were punished cause you have no experience with it or had a bad experience with it aka that bad ass credit score?

Mhhhmmmm.

Go to College.

Loans.

Graduate.

Then you spend the rest of your life trying to catch up because you already started your adulthood like 200 feet behind the start line.

No one should be debating whether to pursue their dreams or get a career to pay the bills.

Or making a hard decision for health insurance or you have none at all.

You really going to let money control your future?

Afterall, what has money done for you?

It did nothing for me, but cause unnecessary problems.

It breaks relationships, friendships, family up.

Makes arguments and chaos.

I have to pay for bud that grows for free in nature.
I have to pay for the Bronx ZOO for fucking animals I would of seen.
Pay to better myself.
Pay for my health.
Pay for my sanity.


Haven't you noticed?

Fuck that man. At the end of the day. Half of it doesn't mean shit. Money is based on gold and we don't have enough for all that green paper out there. So money is really worth nothing so throw it up like rice. It'll come back it always does.

BlackJack: Click Click Puff

Hey I'm 21. Bishes kiss the ring. I have hit 21 and its a lucky number. We playing pool tonite and we gonna chill and breathe easy. No stress. No DRAMA! I'm residing in the Bronx for my birthday. I really don't feel like going to NYC. I don't have NYC money and friends can get together easily in the Bronx. If there's one thing I learned from my past birthdays is that people are lazy as hell and cold weather don't rock with my friends. I don't blame them, most of them are from the islands, so you know how that goes:) This is a blessed year and I'm a blessed young woman. I got my family that loves me unconditionally <----that line was put to the test 2009 lol and they were faithful. I have my love, Adam and I made the right choice. He's the first person that cared bout my birthday and he wasn't blood.

I had birthdays that past by and the only thing I accomplished was laundry. It's weird sometimes having someone that enjoys your birthday more than you. In the short 4.5 months that we were "officially" together. He's done so much and he hasn't even started lol, according to him. I still have the keys he stole for me. When that fucked up car salesman fucked us over. I love my life and I'm done playing normal trying to do what everyone else is doing. I can't do that shit cause I'm smarter, faster, sexier, and blinder than the average bear.

Alrite enough of the mushy shit, run that track.

Say Ahhh by Trey Songz is my birthday jam. yes niggles I know what it means and I choose not to care cause its a good song. Don't Front you knew damn well too and still rocked that ass to the beat.

Scrunchies: A Short Story

She digged into her patent leather black buckle bag for her wallet containing her metrocard. The 6 train was approaching and her bag was about to make her late. She took a deep breath and focused and remembered she put her metrocard in the small pocket on the side of her bag. She quickly reached for it and click clacked towards the train. She barely made it but she was glad she did. She composed herself and walked towards the back. She took a seat by herself and took a deep breath out. She reorganized her bag and wiped the stray curly black hairs away from her soft brown round face. She took out her ipod. She put on her favorite playlist. She slowly closed her eyes and drowned out the noise of the subway and the wandering eyes of morning pervs.

Eva!

Hey Eva!

She heard someone say her name and hoped It wasn't the person she thought it was. She couldn't stand her. She kept her eyes closed but the voice persisted.

Hey Eva! Th voice approached and she started to cringe, her calm peaceful aura was interrupted. She felt someone pluck one of her headphones out. She opened her eyes. Eva wished she didn't.

She saw someone dressed in light blue jeans and a red elmo shirt. She had a matching red belt and red feather earrings. She had red uptowns and black zip up. She had her blonde hair in a low ponytail. She had on a red scrunchie. A scrunchie. SCRUNCHIE. It was no ordinary scrunchie. It was thick and obvious and cherry bright red. It was a weird material for a scrunchie like velvet or suede. Did that make it better? Eva couldn't react.

"Hi Eva, I've been trying to get your attention for the longest. You need to turn down your ipod, you're going to go deaf!" Lala expressed. She never said anything it was always dramatic and acted out. Eva knew this and despised it, also clothes wise she didn't know how to brand herself. This urked her more than ever. Since she loved fashion and Lala must of been a rogue.

"Yea...." Eva shakely murmured

"Hey, Its cool that we met up I was wondering what you've been up to. I haven't seen you in like 7 months." Lala exclaimed

"Well, you know me [no, you don't], trying to keep busy working and stuff. Eva rolled through her ipod and casually looked up.

That's cool, umm well let me get your number, We're having a party for Ashley this weekend.

Which one Ashley Rodriguez or Smith? Eva asked

"Rodriguez, yea she's turning 21 and she's throwing a party. You can go with me! It'll be mad fun!" Lala giggled and her eyes were filled with glee. She looked like kids at christmas. Although Eva couldn't stand Lala she couldn't let her down. Eva always had a soft spot for requests, plus she haven't seen Ashley in a year. It wouldn't be that bad as long as Lala stayed out the way. Lala waited for Eva's answer. She waved back and forth on the train pole.

"Yea that should be fun, you going with other people?" she found that Jamiroquai song she loved and started playing it low. It quietly annoyed her. a red scrunchie. It couldn't be, she had to imagine it, no those things couldn't be back, why would she want it back?
Well I'm going with my boyfriend James and my best friend Savanna. Lala announced
Did James know that she was wearing this scrunchie?

The traina rrived at 125th and Lala could finally sit next to Eva. Lala sat down and Eva couldn't turn away as she watched the scruchie sit down next to her. She never came so close. Eva felt tempted to feel it and then rip it out her hair....

To be cont'd

Off to a New Start

sexy with my eyes like Brock
Leaning on Hubbster
So my birthday is in 3 days.
I'm going to be 21 and I'm chilling usually people get wild and crazy for their 21st but I'll save that for my 22nd lol. I wanna play pool and chill with people I enjoy. Have a game, Have a drink, Have a smoke and go to bed. The weekend I'll prolly go to the movies among other things. Oh BTW I do taxes. I'm certified too, So hit me up people. I'm trying to be an entrepreneur and do things for myself cause the economy don't like me. lol

I am truly blessed to have true friends and a honest hubby and a loving family. I never wrote on here for Christmas and New Years but it was a good way to end 2009. I love my blogger family and YOU GOING TO SEE BIG THINGS HAPPEN THIS YEAR!!!! :)

Renaissance:2009-2010

2009 was full of bullshit, growing pains and love. I spent the first half of my year going nowhere, just waiting, waiting for my opportunity and 2009 did not have it. By July I had lost all faith in people. I believed that people would let you down no matter what. Everyone nowadays just look out for themselves and fuck over the rest.

My relationship with Joshua was based off a lie and I didn't get the memo. I thought he was my rock but even he fell off the wayside. I was out of school and work. I felt like I had no real friends ( with the exception of a few) I felt this overwhelming pressure from everyone. I didn't know how to solve my problems. I tried what I thought was would work for me. It never worked out. I'm a faithful, caring, bitchy, selfless person and people stepped on me. I felt alone and hurt. I felt like I was wasting my life, like I was helping family and friends to reach their goals. My goals and my dreams were there but I couldn't reach them. At one point I just felt stuck, lost and confused.

I had reached the beginning of adulthood.

I am a fighter, I was trying to do what was right, I was doing what was best for a person like me.

I was doing everything wrong. I was too concerned with what I'm suppose be at in my life.

Other people who were 20, I was watching wondering how come I'm not doing what they're doing.

How come I couldn't find a job?

How come I don't enjoy school?

Why can't I make friends as easily as other people?

Why do they stare?

Why can't I move out my Mom's Home as yet?

Then I realized that I'm not everyone else. I'm never on the same level as other people. So why would I pressure myself and give myself such goals? I was trying to fit in and stand out at the same time. Everyone else was waiting too.

They were expecting and judging and I let them.

I let them.

Now I'm doing what's in my heart. Anything my heart desires I do, relax its nothing too damaging or self inflicting. I'm paving my own path since no path is open for me as yet. Too many times I held back because I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I didn't do what I wanted because it would be frowned upon. I did this and only locked down my heart desires, while people stepped on me.

I'm free from myself.

2010 is coming up and I'm going to rock the shit out of this new year.

Today is the beginning of my Revolution.

Today is my Renaissance!

+plus I've always been a late bloomer :)

Happy Thanksgiving

Now's the time to sit down with family, to be thankful, to eat and laugh. Everyone is dressed up and showing they're best foot forward. People are dancing to music and drooling for their favorite dishes only Mom can make. We all bow our heads round the dinner table, the couches or wherever you celebrate. We thank and give our love to God and one another and we always miss out on saying thanks to....

the pilgrims for bringing small pox to the Natives and almost killing them physically and then they killed them emotionally, spiritually and physically. Yea, Let's say thanks.....

Naw I'm just kidding folks. 

Stuff your faces and Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!

 Do Natives celebrate Thanksgiving?