Saturday, November 29, 2008

Need some inspiration....[Sweet]





I haven't been drawing :(

Lawd God, Here we go....

I went out with Franchesca and Co. to celebrate her 21st birthday which was on monday. We had some drinks then we went to a hookah bar. Everything is fine we all chillin' then another girl shows up. She's cool and I proceeded with what I ws doing ....

She talking to another friend and then she says to me.

"Do you know who SANTOGOLD is?"

"yeah, I know who is she is"

"You look like her."

I jus smile at her....because I would of made some dumb face. I was trying hard to. You know liquor let you tell the truth especially with me.
Really....





The only thing I see is that we have the same skin tone.
I could pull off a santogold but I had curly hair that nite....

SO WTF?!!

No offense to people out there.

I noticed that light skin/hispanic people jus say we look like somone and the only thing that we have in common is skin tone.

One day, some guy told my sister she looked like ESTELLE...

a short haircut and same skintone does not make you look like someone.


In fact the girl that said I look like SANTOGOLD kinda look like those PAUL Frank monkeys.

Oh wells I looked better.

Do better people, I don't run my mouth and say you look like Rihanna cause you're light skin and have a short haircut.

Here's me with straight hair....


I swear to you dumb people are like roaches.....

Friday, November 28, 2008

Sentence Enhancers

Cunt Bucket....

I mean cunt is bad already but the bucket is jus icing on the cake don't you think?

sidetrack Joshua works with a bunch of hispanic people rite.
You know how boys are....

"you gonna get some pussy?"

"fuck cheyeah, partying tonite!"
[like they sell it at the convenient store]

okay so when its a dark skinned girl ...they call it "purple pussy"

I have no idea what to say to this LOL

I mean wouldn't it be weird if I was dark all over and when you get to the "love areas" im pink as cotton candy...
 
As Chris Rocks says "It's not the Word but the context in which you use the word"

purple pussy could be a good or bad thing

Yeah but Cunt Bucket I have been using lately, people are always caught off guard with that one

.....purple is my favorite color:]]



Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Hmmm...


I want to delete my MYSPACE so bad, but its just there....I update my mood. Might leave a comment but for the most part, it jus tallies how many people were there. dilemmas. Dilemmas

Its like that bad habit you won't let go of....
Don't even get me started on FACEBOOK. This is the only site I actually enjoy...those screwy APPS be killing me.


This picture is how I've been feeling lately....

My face is very visual. I don't mean to do it, its just a part of me. I saw this video when I was like two. Guess what? I was doing the same thing back then...

Most likely this will also be my face for THANKSgiving, going over to Joshua's family

Let the Holidays begin.



SchizophrenicAmnesticBitchAss BITCHES!!!! [Bitter]



Fuck a Post...I'm mad lazy...I jus got this one from my old myspace blog. I wrote this back in August for Sasha. I know some of ya'll can relate [who I am kidding, MOST of ya'll will relate]

Enjoy.



Hmm... I thought I would bring this up because everyone seems to be suffering from amnesia and schizophrenia these days with some symptoms of BITCHASSNESS. As Diddy would say...

I don't understand these people going around wanting to be everybody's best friend and they're just playing the role and not actually taking this serious. I mean its just like any other hat you have to put on. You don't see your mom saying she's the best mom and she forgot to feed you for the week, and on top of that she finds a way to make it your fault "Well, you didn't remind me!". I mean come on people....DUH. I mean my sister suffered from these amnesia bitch ass niggers [yeah I said it it actually applies this time] for a while now I'm glad she took her medicine [A special home remedy consists of Lime, Gnarls Barkley's "Going On" and of course
FUCK YOU BITCH]

I mean the signs are kinda obvious

1. Bitches that wanna be best friends in two weeks
2. Bitches that get amnesia when shit goes down
3. Bitches that talk shit before you even finishing saying "Goodbye"
4. These Bitches either have too much or too little self esteem 

in extreme cases they just out they fucking minds aka
THE JOKER

....when I say bitch I'm not just talking about people with vaginas. I'm not sexist.

Everyone has a friend suffering from this epidemic. Break ties before they falsely accuse YOU
of this condition

But we all want to deny the plain old truth...I mean even I do it sometimes
Whatever you thought of the person when you first met them its probably the truth 

Its funny how everything wraps up back to the beginning, like a nice little package with ribbon
and bow.

...Its just
sad to see whats in that package

Sunday, November 23, 2008

A Rant from the Heart [Bitter/Sweet]




Why am I the odd one out cause I actually do what I feel?

Does that make me a bad person?

Or should I act one way to society and be myself at home or with a loved one?

My opinions, beliefs, feelings, are mine own. I shouldn't apologize to no one because they are strong. 

Jus because my opinions are strong doesn't mean I'm trying to shove it down your throat.

My mother raised me to have an open mind. 
She did a good job, she did it so well I'm more open-minded than her. I observe and think before I speak. I know the consequences of my actions, good and bad. I strive for what I want with a blind determination. You only get the things you think you deserve. This is not cockiness because I will pay the price and suffer to get where I want to be. When everyone's hope is dwindling that's when mine is flourishing. I will not be in a corner and let life beat the shit out of me. I'm stubborn where it sometimes hurt me, but I always listen when people critique me and although it seems sometimes I didn't take anything with me, I did. I'm emotionally guarded and I use my jokes as a shield. I'm a negative realist and its usually the truth for people around and a negative attribute for me.



You don't have to tell me what you're going through cause I already know AND no its because I'm psychic its because I observe I see your body language and when people miss things I usually pick it up. I play dumb dumb sometimes just so people really don't see the potential ....all the while I already know what you are going to do. I know I do this to protect myself, people always want to destroy what's potential in people cause they have none in themselves. I don't tell people what's going to  happen in their life because they need to go through their shit. Just like my mother watch me fuck up sometimes you have to learn through experience.
I'm still figuring out shit myself and I don't need.... 

The Church Going Woman 
first of all I would like to say FUCK YOU. You can't hold your nose over my head and tell me I'm a sinner and such. Where were you when you were 19, not church so please save the shit. You ain't fooling me and you sure ain't fooling GOD. You're suppose to guide me and yet you take your time out to judge and spew nastiness. All the meanwhile giving GOD a bad name.
Most likely you are there because you got old and no one wanted your old punani. 
I'm not talking bout the dedicated REAL women, jus whoever this applies to

The Forgetful Parents
Ya'll are the reason children hate authority. not because they love anarchy its because ya'll had the power and didn't know what the fuck to do with it. Blaming society for your sluts and deadbeat dads. You hide your colorful past and act like angels and chastise your children like you don't remember what its like to be young.   Truth will set you free. Once you are honest with your children they will respect you. They might not respect what you did but I guarantee they will return the favor. I do. So what if you use your boyfriends to pay the rent!! You did what you had to do to survive. So please don't act like you don't know what's up when your daughter is acting the same way. The thing is whether you tell us the truth or not we know already. Deep down we know, we know.

Cap'n Save Em Teachers
I hate those teachers who have nothing to do with the failure of students but are proud of me and take all credit for my achievements and As. Sipping on coffee and know you aren't trying your best. You came to Bronx to "make a difference" ...no you didn't you came because you are a new teacher and they won't hire you in white surburbia. So you'll get some experince and leave us high and dry. You don't get us and call us rowdy and a lost case. Did you take te time to relate to us? I mean I have to find a way to relate to American Culture...but you don't have to because our culture is miniscule and your culture isn't a culture but the only way to learn and live.

BTW If they make another movie bout a surburban white teacher saving some underprivileged ethnic  kids imma kill someone

Religion
I really don't like religion because you lose touch with the essence of why the religion was here in the first place and get caught up in the rituals and practices. People don't see their earthly life as something to make a change but jus a past time to the real life after death. Black christians who sit down and let whatever happen, Happen because GOD is coming. So white christians have a good earth life and after life? Fighting between religions trying to figure out which one is the right one. When at the end of the day they all have the same essence.
 A better YOU

I'm sick of the masks because I see right through them, Be yourselves people! I wouldn't like to know Life past me by because I was trying to please everyone but myself. I'm not perfect I find myself hesitating when opportunities arrive because I'm scared of reactions. Or maybe I don't want to realize the limit of my abilities. I know my weaknesses and I will make them my strengths for 2009.






Thursday, November 20, 2008

...Told You So


Looky here.

I see Laura London is set to join the cast of 90210 as a potential love interest for no other than the token black guy.

Howw.....PREDICTABLE!!

Ugh I'm so tired of this bullshit. I'm sure the token black girl on Gossip Girl is just so excited when her character isn't a prop or something colorful in the background.

I was talking bout this crap around September click me for the rant.

I think.... they think we're black magnets...

If we ain't white then we gotta fuck???

If this was real life, token black dude would be wiping the floor with his dick mopping up white girls.

Don't mean to be visual but c'mon

Glad Laura London is there, She's cute AND sexy

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Sugar Origami Boots



I just got these today they're so cute. fits perfectly too. I am about to give up shopping outside and buy shit from the internet. God know I'm sick of searching for one of kind stuff that represents me just to have some bitch stalk and harass me so she can get the same thing. In the same damn color!!!

I remember when Vans were "in" and I got a pair not the checkered kind but one with outlines of roses and graph pattern beneath it. I love those shoes still wearing them too. I bought way up in the Palisades Mall...
I this girl had them on in the same color a 2 months later...
like WTF???
really....you needed it that bad.
She knew she did something bad cause she wouldn't dare wear them around me.

Like grow some backbone and wear what you love. People wait til someone else has it so they're not alone. Anyways it was like 45$ not bad and the inside is kind of furry. I'm going to wear them with my tights since I put a hold on buying jeans since they don't fit me rite or my body is weird and I need to lose weight watevs....
*munches on a donut****
My shirt is shipped out too.
This is like Christmas......FOR ME muhahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaahahahahaaaa * cough * cuff* hyack* muhahahahahahahaaaaaaaa

alrite im done for the nite.















We ate that sonofbitch after this pic was taken....

Monday, November 17, 2008

How Dare You [Bitter]

I find this just too funny...You think gays getting married is wrong, unnatural?

Welp you can justify yourself by a verse in the bible to act in a hateful judgemental manner?

If I was to think in a christian matter...

Sin is Sin, right?

So they are no levels of sin, no pyramid or pamphlet.

Person A Lies

Person B steals

Person C is Gay
---------------------
equals SIN

So that christian who steals is going to the same hell where that person is gay.....
jus saying if we're playing by the rule book.

Were Adam and Eve married?
Was there a great ceremony after God ripped out one of Adam's ribs to make Eve?

Why are ya'll so adament about this?

They're not marrying you so what's the deal?

Priests are not suppose to marry. They're men and they get urges so their sticky fingers reach down alter boys pants.

Where's the oppostion? Is they're a law banning that type of behavior?

How bout the beloved marriage that went downhill ending in divorce?

Is their a law banning Divorce?

How bout pregnancy out of wedlock? Should I marry that person and be miserable for the rest of my life?

So someone is gay, Am I allowed to kill them?

Therfore I am breaking a Commandment, to rub out something I think is sin

Rape.
Child Molestation.
Hate Crimes.


Most of these crimes are committed by straight people, by men, should there be some laws against that?

Scared your children might turn out gay?
That's the scariest thing....

I'm sure mothers of
wife beaters
child molesters
serial killers
terrorists
nazi

would gladly trade love to see gay children than their hateful children


They don't hurt me, They not hurting children, They ain't killing anyone.

God always finds a way to make you learn.

People who hate gays
....always have gay children

People who hate black people
.....their children falls in love with one

People who want perfect children
....always gets the black sheep

God
is no idiot, He keeps things in a perfect balance.
In fact if you look at certain situations....GOD is rather funny

Once I have faith, love, and keep him number one and just try to be a good OPEN, gracious, kind person regardless of race, sex, color, creed and culture.

I'm good.

I personally think people who do nothing but judge and spew hate are really empty on the inside. They see something in gay people that they don't see in themselves.

FREEDOM.

....plus I don't know why they put that to a vote...
that like asking people who like hip hop should we ban country music...

like WTF??!

Hmmm

I get the feeling that Mama Tina [Beyonce's Mother] is designing T Pain's circus outfits and top hats.....

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Thank You For Being A ...Loser...you never watch good shows

I need some "The Office" buddies to chat with, nothing is more depressing than having a favorite show and no one to discuss with ***sigh****

Entourage, Dexter, ANTM....

somebody?

anybody?


....Heelll-pahp... *cue tears*


I wonder if anyone can tell what quote i got that from LOL

enjoy a clip from the Hallloween episode.

THE OFFICE

Virtual Shoppings [Sweet]



I just bought this shirt from Two in the Shirt aka T.I.T.S [I find that name rather clever]
in the Kazbah section of Karmaloop.com

I find it mean that I have to look left a right for a cool shirt for a girl....
Boys have all the fun. I want naked men on my shirt. Why is it always one sided LAWD GOD.

Oh wells...
people think girls are prissy and so forth. You be surprised to see the skeletons in our closets tee hhee hee

Ain't I a nice "Wifey"

Friday, November 14, 2008

The New World Order


....LOL the sad thing is people actually think this way

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Pet Peeves [Bitter/Sweet]


Oh GOD I was surfing through blogs and I happen to step into one of my pet peeves

She was describing herself in her profile section...regular stuff you know

and then I read "I'm a size 1"

then I was like "WTF? WHO CARES?"

Am I buying you a pair of jeans or something in the future?

I hate these types of people who in describing themselves add physical characteristics as if it has anything to do with your personality. I know its something small but it shows a lot about how she defines herself....

I kind of stay away from those types of people.

"I have 36 Ds and they're natural" Congratulations someone give this girl a handclap she really achieve something...Mindblowing....these people swore they grew themselves as if genetics had nothing to do with it.

I also stay away from people with baby soft hands...AKA they don't do shit

I would advise if you're getting a roommate to to this test.

I stay away from people with knees that are the exact same color as their legs....IDK its jus...IDK
Maybe because I need people who struggle, I mean I don't look like I went through shit but if you look closely I have scars left and right.

I mean you can't say you lived life and your clearer than my five old brother NO MA'AM.

Plus the people that actually lived life are the ones that are the most interesting.....

Goodnite.

EWW....

I usually let my pitbull sleep at the end of my bed. Nothing serious

WELL this morning I woke up. It was really cold but not in the spot I was laying.

I didn't think nothing of it. The landlord puts the heat way up in the night and lets us freeze the rest of the day.

I just assume it was sweat.
....it wasn't

Kingston pissed on my bed.

My warm comforter and my sheets soak with dog piss.

I was damp too.

Do you know how disgusted I felt?
Do you know what dog piss smells like?

Kingston is officially back on training mode.

This is her first Winter and she is not spending it inside, pissing and shitting everywhere cause she's cold.

Jeremy Scott Adidas [Sweet]























I will personally be YOUR slave when someone get this for me when they drop.....
I was literally drooling

I am not the sneakerhead type but when I see something I like, I will not stop til I get it.

Once I saw the DINOSAUR JRs Nike and I didn't buy sneakers until I found my size and a good price. I waited a year.....

I DON'T PLAY


****Official Christmas List Nominee
***

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I Don't Get It [Bitter]




So those grillz prolly cost ten of thousands of dollars

but no one couldn't pick up some blistex at the the beauty supply store for 1$

A little chapped from the vocoder I see.....

I want a tattoo.... [Bitter/Sweet]


Damn I have been thinking about this forever...

Fudge it imma get it before December rolls up on me. Jump with both feet, no tip toeing

Something simple like the pic above... So my ass doesn't get bored looking at it.




BTW if Rihanna doesn't make a new album or stop re- re-rih- rih- releasing GOOD GIRL GONE BAD....

I mean Michael Jackson did the same thing but THRILLER is the best selling album of all time.

Like WTF? Is this the new trend. I just bought your album but now you've rereleased with new tracks and videos. Why didn't you do that in the beginning?

Justin Timberlake, Beyonce, Chris Brown, etc
they all did it this year. I should get a damn coupon for the rereleased version, when I buy the first one. If you artists keep pissing me off....

That's why LIMEWIRE and VUZE is my best friend. At least they don't try to milk what little money I have.

Then I have to see ARTISTS roaming the streets shopping all the time, instead of in the Fudging studio MAKING ME A NEW ALBUM TO LISTEN TO!!!

No let's Rerelease the same album, make the artwork shiny, and fling 3 or 4 songs on it[btw most likely it was leftovers that didn't make it the first time around]. That way I can get those Balenciaga shoes and make some more gossip for myself

*excuse my ranting

but yeah I want a FAITH tattoo like the BELIEVE one/
My mom's name is Faith and I need some faith rite now ELLE OH ELLE

I'm tired. Going back to sleep.

Umm Cheyeah [Bitter]



I just can't.....

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Entourage [Sweet]

Ooo I was watching ENTOURAGE and Bow Wow is on the show as a writer named Charlie managed by E.


Entourage can't go without an episode without showing some tits.

I wish there was a girl's version of the show. Its 2008 women are vicious, prolly worse than men.


I actually liked him on the show. I didn't expect this though....


All the Bow Wow groupies commence

Oh wells what can you do?

Anyways the show is getting GOOD.

...So is Dexter, I love that show. I'm glad I gave up watching tv, they're better, more efficent ways *snickers* to watch want you want LOL

Sasha Fierce/Beyonce....watever lets you sleep at nite [SWEET]



...listening to Beyonce's album through MYSPACE Music. I really like it. I'm sorry that chick is bad. I like the promo pics too. I want some armor like that. I like how she incorporates her ring into thing whole thing. Don't be surprised if dudes start proposing with jewel encrusted gloves LOL and girls that 'draw" their eyebrows will draw some just like hers.....

Let's pray to GOD the second one won't happen, cause Lawd GOD I can't take the anime eyebrows on these bx chicks. I don't need to see Bert&Ernie eyebrows either.

Its like one in da the morning I swore I was going to bed.

Goodnite.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Ugh..

I have to work today. blah I just wanted to stay in and I need to stay, IDK how this is going to work. I'm going to splurge on myself when I get home tonite or maybe tomorrow. I need another job quickly.

I need these in my life.

Converse XX Hi in all Black Mono. 70$

... they have them in red , white and black. I am feeling the black mono....I'm going to order these maybe I'll pick a different color. Christmas is coming and I need to get my shit together...A lot of people on my list. This year I am only getting ONE good present for each person. Joshua is the exception, he wanted to lavish me with gifts I don't mind as long as they're the right gifts LOL.


I am going to the movies tomorrow and eating bad shit for my body. Oh wells...
Hang out with the best friend and have fun....for once

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Hmm Really? [Bitter]

Umm, I went to Discipleship Class today and it was boring, it usually isn't bad. I enjoyed it the other weeks, but the real teacher took over and I almost got up and left. There were two other classes with grown men and I enjoyed it more eavesdropping on them. What made it worse is that he was really quiet. I hope this is just first day jeeters cause I will change my mind quickly and waste my Sundays some place else.

Videos that fudge up good songs



Christina AGUILERA Keeps Getting Better

Umm Really Christina??
You could of done a lot more with this song please....GO BACK TO BASICS



Jazmine SULLIVAN Bust your Windows



Jazmine Sullivan needs a team to tell her how to be famous and act like she's meant to be in front of the screen. Who gave her that 1990s fur jacket thingy? She needs Rihanna's team, the only one doing their job is Jazmine and her makeup artist. I hate when they half ass with talented people and boost up trash.....

NO BUSTING OF THE WINDOWS I SEE

Josh just made me realize that the broken trail of glass was the car's windows.

REALLY?

In my fit of passion and rage, I busted his windows then swept it up to make a trail for him to see the other shit I did....interesting

What really got me was the perfect new panties she found in the bedroom.

I have never been in this situation and pray to GOD I never will....I'm jus saying if she was to really find some panties they wouldn't look like that. In fact they would be rolled up, used, etc. I mean if your boyfriend is cheating on you in YOUR bedroom I 'm sure when they were ripping each other's clothes off she wasn't like

"Hold on Baby"
* takes off panties, washes them in the basement washer/dryer
comes back upstairs irons them, sprays her perfume on it and stashes it in an obvious place for a woman to find*

"okay let's finish cheating"

jus a thought people....

Goodnite

Saturday, November 8, 2008

just dandy.....

My boss wants me to work the new brunch shift...

I didn't even know I had to be there if it wasn't for Anita [thank you]
She wanted to take the Brunch and I take the dinner shift as usual. He said "NO"

Idk why, usually he's laid back

I have to be in brooklyn by 9.30...I live in the bronx that's gonna be great

Maybe he's testing me or maybe its cause I dropped some forks thursday.

IDK oh wells I can enjoy the rest of my saturday.

It 12 in the morning gotta get some sleep...

Kisses

My johnny bravo hair and Seth doing his thing

Friday, November 7, 2008

My Christmas List



RUBBER DUCK sportysnowjoggers in shiny blue

100$

Ipod Touch 16gb
300$

I know Apple has some crusty ass headphones, so I need some beautiful hadphones to go with my iPod.



Wii and all the trimmings


I love stocking every since I was little and I'm glad to see they're in style yay!
Hue, ASOS, Target, whatever I love them all....I want some paisley prints one like Anne Sui
Supra NS Strapped in Red Patent....They're so ugly and cute at the same time
175$
Mini MUNNY Mobile

29.95$


Art Supplies to actually customize this beauty and those Soopa Toys which have been chilling in my mom's room since April....SMH

* Super Sculpey
*Sanding Sponge
*Airbrush Paints
*paintbrushes

I can go on and on......

stay tuned for more christmas wishing....

I will put up my decorations tomorrow

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Halloween Nite

Halloween was interesting.....

This was Joshua's first Halloween out....
He said he was halloween raped
so that pretty much sums up the nite.

We were supposed to meet Fran at some bar and chillando

....We didn't get in Me and my sister looked underaged aka our asses weren't slutting it up for night

Franchesca didn't come out her friend Diona came btw I thought that was rude considering she knew Joshua since kindergarten.

I was cold and all types of wrong.

Joshua wanted me to sleepover at Fran's [you don't need to know why]

She was suppose to pay for Joshua since Josh said he paid for everything one night when they high

She was broke.

We left.

I mean if she knew we weren't getting in jus' say so.
We could of watched a movie.


"I'm glad you saw Franchesca like that
that's Classic Fran" Joshua said to Sasha

..its true

Meanwhile we took the train and there was this couple dead ass singing for the whole train ride
IDK how they manged to destroy and be off beat to every song they sang. they didn't get off til' 125th....

the guy had a plunger and a orgasm donor white jacket highlarious

I was all types of no that nite...but some of my questions were answered

play it.you know you want to....