Oh, It Won't Be Long, You Will Grow Strong, Up, Up and Away

I think I found my song to sum up 2008.

I think the "him" is not necessarily a person, well for me at least.

Just the growing pains and just healing and learning new things as I get older. So for 2008 my theme song is Death by Chocolate by Sia.

[btw kinda ironic her holding Ms.Piggy]

Kinda weird I find my song in December lol.

Here's her performing it in Dallas

I find the best songs, that relate to me are the ones with the biggest message in a few words.

They repeat over and over until you finally feel it.  

Like really recognize and connect to what you're saying.....

I'm trying find out some New Year's Resolutions...

My own countdown for the year too

Twilight

It's Snowing in NYC I thought it would be after Christmas before I saw any flakes....guess not.

I read Twilight then watched the movie.

The book was kinda predictable but its not for my age group but still... I can enjoy a Jerry Spinelli or Roald Dahl book and that's not for my age group either.

My favorites

Star Girl
Maniac McGee

umm The Witches, The BFG, etc

I found that it Twilight was very keen on telling every detail between the growing love of Edward and Belle. Then when the action started and it finally got good...Stephenie Meyers got tired of typing and ended it with bows and trimming. Like a new Series that realised it wasn't getting picked up for a new season. I watched the movie and it was the same thing. I mean it was a good cat and mouse plot and she ended it too easily, what a cunt bucket.

The sunlight makes them sparkle?

Really?

They're just to good to be true. I mean he's flawless and now he sparkles in the sunlight?!

...that's just fucked up

I mean she used a lethal concuction for teenage girls to fall in love with Edward Cullen

He's pretty but in a manly matter not like Zac Efron

He's tall and mysterious. Quiet and brooding. Strong and yet there's a feminine side tha he only shows you....

He finds you irrestible to the point of this... animalistic....raging....hormones....driving.....

conscienceless force [had to give myself a minute to recover *fans self*]

but he denies it cause he doesn't want to hurt you.

But now he's your own personal diamond when it's sunny?!

Also it seems they made a good decision picking Robert Pattinson as the main charater, as for the other vampires they don't look nearly as beautiful. I mean in the book all of them were beautiful. I do love the actor they picked to portray the father Carlise. He used to be in this show I like called Fastlane.

I found myself just staring at Edward Cullen throughout the whole movie. 

Yes I was staring at him in Harry Potter.....

Oh one of vampires were black and it jus doesn't make sense to me but he was shiny and healthy as ever. He had no paleness...or maybe greyness to him at all. I find that stupid, you spent all day caking up the the white vampires and no one suggested we mute the black vampire's skin tone. We get pale too. I get purplish, grey, like my golden undertone turned off. 

Overall it was ehhh.

I'm reading the second book New Moon. Now that shit is good. Stephanie Meyers must of took a story/plot lesson. Its very addictive. I hope it ends well.

I give this a 6.5 out 10

I would of dropped it two points but its Robert Pattinson...growls

Sooner or Later

Sooner or Later

BTW...this song was my jammm

>>s a s|h|a™<<

Have You Ever.... [part.2]

I don't know what it is....

White People's Conversation out of all the people who ride the train are always the most boring. Even when people are speaking a different language they more visually entertaining. Is it because I can't relate to them? I doubt it.

I talked to my sister to confirm or deny my opinion. She agreed that it is so boring. I asked my mother she agreed too. I find in general what they talk about is boring....

Now I don't mean real conversations bout life or anything like that. I'm talking bout small talk, Shooting the shit with your friend. Just having a fun time. 

Maybe cause its the train and they don't wanna get too juicy with it.

I personally think in general they talk bout chit chat stuff.

Example.

I like those shoes.

You like them I bought them at 34th in Journey's 

really?

yeah

cool.

You know where Journeys is right just take the.....

Now they might go on with the conversation but not truly get into the details. They might fling in a big word or two instead or describing what happen or how they felt. They let the big word do the talking. 

other's ppl's conversation.

I like those shoes

Thanks. I got them at 34th in Journeys. This lady was hawking my ass the whole time. So was a little too friendly. I don't know maybe they do commision, she needed to relax. The shoes were nice. This girl was looking at me whil I was looking at them. I hate those people

Was she a lesbian?! lol

No, [chuckle] She just wanted it cause I picked it up. You can tell  by the way she dress all she does is follow fads. Plus I looked fashion forward.

You mad conceited for no reason. [laughs]

Wait let me tell you what she had on.....

Now I will continue to observe....

I will write a post on hispanic people....NO One is getting away LOL

STUFFWHITEPEOPLELIKE click it you won't regret it

Cool Cupcake

I want a cupcake cake for my birthday.

*Fun Fact** My sister and I have the same birthday.

So I thought it would be fun for us to have a big ass Cupcake as our birthday cake.

They also have to pan to make your own at Target

BTW It's January 14th....punks;]

Blackberry Storm

I knew this was going to happen....

My sister and my love wants this phone.

Its 200 each.....

He already sold his iPhone. I personally think the iPhone is still better...but watevs

They're not going to listen to me anyway.

The Blackberry is shiny and BRAND NEW!!!

So I decided to jus put him on our plan. MUHAHAHHAAA 

Verizon is nice and all but that shit expensive to start up. Plus sometimes they have like back up fees. When taking a new customer....

Aww Christmas.

Oggle the video....

I picked this one cause his voice is nice LOL

Have You Ever....

listened to a white person' s conversation on the train?

Ummm its pretty boring stuff. 

I have a theory I 'll let you know when I'm fix the kinks and oil the parts

Reflections....

I might as well light my Christmas tree...on fire.

I have no money so I guess I will be Tiny Tim-ing it this year. Full of good cheer and broke.

But I'm a good girl this year and I hopeful have another job coming my way.

In other Broke Ass Chicka News.

 My birthday is coming and I'm going to be 20! I'm officially not a teenager....but still in limbo. 

I have an old soul, so age doesn't affect me. I feel like a 35 year old woman trapped within childlike confinements and rules.

I wanna have a nice birthday something I can remember. I remember birthdays where I did laundry, nothing much, ate cake. I never really felt mad or felt like something was due to me cause I made another 365 days pass by.....

but still...

I've been reflecting on 2008 It was slow and fast at the same time. I spent the year going through growing pains. I felt like GOD was putting my life in slow motion. It was slow to the point where I was literally watching seconds feel like hours. Choices waiting for decisions.

People taking me for granted. It felt like everyone was moving forward and I had a boulder to carry and a broken watch. 

In a sense I knew it was happening to me and I wondered WTF?! Can my plans go the way I want it?!

I'm glad for 2008 cause it leads to 2009 which I will be out....As soon as they say 3, 2, 1 Happy New Year!!!

At the begining of 2008 I promised myself to be truthful and try not to deny or cover up what I feel. 

I told my mother a dark secret. One I kept to myself for years....Everytime I would hear this story she would recite and feel so happy, sure of herself. I felt depressed. I told her and I felt so much better. I opened myself up to a certain Kermit and I'm glad I did. 

The truth hurts....

I think it hurts more when only you know.

btw I'm reading Twilight. ummm Am I the only one who feels that book is kinda predictable. I'm going to write a book because I'm sure I can come up with a better story.