A Reflection

I mean by nature I love to help people out. Not like helping old ladies find a seat [God knows I don't give a fuck and on a bad day i don't give a fuck where you sit MY rump is properly seated], but helping the people I care about. Like if you got no money I'll give it to you willingly without any delay and don't even expect that shit back. Or if you can't make it somewhere I'll try to. Just always looking out for people. So I was wondering if people are doing the same for me?

I mean, we all wonder....

Are you doing this for me?

Or are you doing this for me cause in the end you benefit too?

Or your ass gotten use to my "nice" behavior that it just turned into my "behavior" and when I don't put your ass into consideration I'm acting out of place.....

jus sayin'

It's a thought that ran through my head. Maybe I'm overanalyzing once again...

Oooo I just realized something about myself [bear with me I'm only 20. I have a lot to discover]

When I'm fed up with shit I never seem to just quit like in the heat of the moment. I just continue whatever I was doing and like after I've come to my conclusion my ass jus leaves..

LEAVES

Like I have no warnings [well if your good at body language I guess you can tell]

I just stop and go on with my life. Now I don't don't know if that's a good or bad thing but its a thingy for sure.

It may seem abrupt and SO random but it really isn't my ass just didn't tell you about it

Update.

OOooo I can't wait for a new hairstyle. I mean I am sick of the black hair it's easy to do and shit but my ass is itching like a crackhead for a new 'Do.

I need some color it's March the sun is out.

I bought some black lipstick....

PAUSE

I kno I know, like wtf?! Black Lipstick...

But I wore with some glitter...It was sexy I think that's gonna be my look for a while I'll give you people pictures when I'm done with the new hair and makeup.

Henry the 13th: It just won't die......

I so missed this big part of my life that happened a few weeks ago. Remember Henry, If you don't click this. It was one of my very first posts. Anyways I haven't seen in forever even though he lives in my area. Move in different circles and shit. Well I was gonna pick up Josh from work and my ass is already late. I'm waiting for the train minding my biznesss...

Guess who waddles/sways over no other but Henry

So I flashed a quick fake smile and waved.

I thought he would move on but he didn't

He talked and talked about his moves and coming up in the world and making that money. His certificates, his jobs,etc.

I really hated the D train with all my heart at that point. I wanted to jump in the tracks and just run.

After a century the train comes I aways sit my the window in the corner and guess what he sits right next to me.

The train to Soho is a good 45 minute ride.

And I can't even give my pum pum some breathing room.

He goes on and on.....

Recalling middle school and the conversation that ended my fakery towards him.

I just rolled throught the punches.

Throughout the monologue he kept asking me to make some artistic shit for me.

It's a leather, but on the back it has hands every color and their all reaching up .....

to money or some shit like that

It says hustle hard, and something bout GOD

I almost had an aneyeurism [spell check]

That is the corniest thing ever EVER.

I will not do that for u and rep that shit.

"NO"

but C' mon for sentimental value, what we had together. [Sentimental value?! We were friends once, you became obsessive I moved on you didn't, If I was to do it for you. You'll prolly jack off to it every night knowing that I touched it once and now you're wearing it]

"NO, I'm lazy"[plus its mad corny]

I know a lot of dudes who can do it for me but I want you to do it.[Oh please let them do it and get off my back]

"Naw, I'm good"[OMG just drop it]

LOL Here's the creeper feature moment

He leans in and sniffs me.

"Is that white diamonds?"

"UMMMmmm Yeah....[glance sideways and scream with my eyes for help]"

"ahhh How'd you know?"

"I've been around [please nigga are you trying to imply that you gots it like that....awww BRuhahahahhahahaaa]"

I mean you don't sniff people....

YOU DON'T SNIFF PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

part.2 coming soon

Ugh Mickey'Ds.....

I work overnight on Sundays and every single monday morning no one shows up to take over my shift at 7:00 am
I always leave at 8:40.....

Now Imagine working a whole shift when you're suppose to be sleeping and is rewarded with what......

A Rush

fatass niggas need their bagels, mcgriddles, hotcakes.

I'm about to collapse with no sleep and my body stop functioning around 6:00am.

Today will be different cause guess what?

I'm going to be that inconsiderate bitch this week and leave at 7. On the fucking dot, no exceptions. My coat will be on at 6:59

That McDonalds could be burning down and they'll look up to me to save them and I"ll look down and whisper NO.

Munny!

March came in like a fucking vengeance ROAAARRRR!!!

It snowed and the wind and the wind and the WIND and I had to work overnight that was lovely.

Moving on.

I have a new art projecy for myself. It's March and I've drawn NOTHING sad yes indeed

I will start to customize Munnys

They're these cute little do it yourself vinyl toys from Kid Robot

I always drawn on paper so it a fresh new thing to accomplish.

Do I just attract DUM-DUMS?

"She the only black girl in that group; she's pretty for a dark skin girl"

I'm having a very hard time not getting upset at everything. I mean I can always control the way I act but I can't control what I get upset at.

What can you do, rite?

It's not like I'm Chris Browning Bitches.

But that comment was the fucking icing on my shit pie cake.

You those people who looked like they were bullied when they were younger. They grow up and now they're normal, almost cool. The're still holding grunges and feel like they're so different and basically forcing out every joke, with every fiber trying to BE different instead of being themselves....Yeah

People always think I overanalyze shit too much but I'm just seeing what you're not seeing.

Go with your gut feeling [not your hormones or ur brain just your guts]

That comment was just said to get a rise out of people to start some shit to get some attention.

It just confirms that you have low self esteem and issues to fix. I will not be the one to do so. By acting like you didn't hear anything pisses them off to the very core.

Going back to the bully situation. Now kids are cruel but sometimes they see shit we don't see.

I wish we were kids again I would personally enjoy seeing that dog get knock the fuck out.

.......I'll just wait a couple of months and hear what I said on the first day.

Why These People?! [Bitter]

Why do men think that just because I flash you a smile [in your direction] doesn't mean that my other set of lips are smiling too?

Yes bish that set of lips has teeth too.

Salty? yes Sodium filled

Goodnite.

Sentence Enhancers

Ooo I stole this from Sasha.

Instead of Bitch. Bish.

It sounds funnier and you're not actually cursing

Ooo and Things that end in bucket. example: thirst bucket, cunt bucket, ass bucket, etc

Fierce Bish Out.