Oh, It Won't Be Long, You Will Grow Strong, Up, Up and Away

I think I found my song to sum up 2008.

I think the "him" is not necessarily a person, well for me at least.

Just the growing pains and just healing and learning new things as I get older. So for 2008 my theme song is Death by Chocolate by Sia.

[btw kinda ironic her holding Ms.Piggy]

Kinda weird I find my song in December lol.

Here's her performing it in Dallas

I find the best songs, that relate to me are the ones with the biggest message in a few words.

They repeat over and over until you finally feel it.  

Like really recognize and connect to what you're saying.....

I'm trying find out some New Year's Resolutions...

My own countdown for the year too

Twilight

It's Snowing in NYC I thought it would be after Christmas before I saw any flakes....guess not.

I read Twilight then watched the movie.

The book was kinda predictable but its not for my age group but still... I can enjoy a Jerry Spinelli or Roald Dahl book and that's not for my age group either.

My favorites

Star Girl
Maniac McGee

umm The Witches, The BFG, etc

I found that it Twilight was very keen on telling every detail between the growing love of Edward and Belle. Then when the action started and it finally got good...Stephenie Meyers got tired of typing and ended it with bows and trimming. Like a new Series that realised it wasn't getting picked up for a new season. I watched the movie and it was the same thing. I mean it was a good cat and mouse plot and she ended it too easily, what a cunt bucket.

The sunlight makes them sparkle?

Really?

They're just to good to be true. I mean he's flawless and now he sparkles in the sunlight?!

...that's just fucked up

I mean she used a lethal concuction for teenage girls to fall in love with Edward Cullen

He's pretty but in a manly matter not like Zac Efron

He's tall and mysterious. Quiet and brooding. Strong and yet there's a feminine side tha he only shows you....

He finds you irrestible to the point of this... animalistic....raging....hormones....driving.....

conscienceless force [had to give myself a minute to recover *fans self*]

but he denies it cause he doesn't want to hurt you.

But now he's your own personal diamond when it's sunny?!

Also it seems they made a good decision picking Robert Pattinson as the main charater, as for the other vampires they don't look nearly as beautiful. I mean in the book all of them were beautiful. I do love the actor they picked to portray the father Carlise. He used to be in this show I like called Fastlane.

I found myself just staring at Edward Cullen throughout the whole movie. 

Yes I was staring at him in Harry Potter.....

Oh one of vampires were black and it jus doesn't make sense to me but he was shiny and healthy as ever. He had no paleness...or maybe greyness to him at all. I find that stupid, you spent all day caking up the the white vampires and no one suggested we mute the black vampire's skin tone. We get pale too. I get purplish, grey, like my golden undertone turned off. 

Overall it was ehhh.

I'm reading the second book New Moon. Now that shit is good. Stephanie Meyers must of took a story/plot lesson. Its very addictive. I hope it ends well.

I give this a 6.5 out 10

I would of dropped it two points but its Robert Pattinson...growls

Sooner or Later

Sooner or Later

BTW...this song was my jammm

>>s a s|h|a™<<

Have You Ever.... [part.2]

I don't know what it is....

White People's Conversation out of all the people who ride the train are always the most boring. Even when people are speaking a different language they more visually entertaining. Is it because I can't relate to them? I doubt it.

I talked to my sister to confirm or deny my opinion. She agreed that it is so boring. I asked my mother she agreed too. I find in general what they talk about is boring....

Now I don't mean real conversations bout life or anything like that. I'm talking bout small talk, Shooting the shit with your friend. Just having a fun time. 

Maybe cause its the train and they don't wanna get too juicy with it.

I personally think in general they talk bout chit chat stuff.

Example.

I like those shoes.

You like them I bought them at 34th in Journey's 

really?

yeah

cool.

You know where Journeys is right just take the.....

Now they might go on with the conversation but not truly get into the details. They might fling in a big word or two instead or describing what happen or how they felt. They let the big word do the talking. 

other's ppl's conversation.

I like those shoes

Thanks. I got them at 34th in Journeys. This lady was hawking my ass the whole time. So was a little too friendly. I don't know maybe they do commision, she needed to relax. The shoes were nice. This girl was looking at me whil I was looking at them. I hate those people

Was she a lesbian?! lol

No, [chuckle] She just wanted it cause I picked it up. You can tell  by the way she dress all she does is follow fads. Plus I looked fashion forward.

You mad conceited for no reason. [laughs]

Wait let me tell you what she had on.....

Now I will continue to observe....

I will write a post on hispanic people....NO One is getting away LOL

STUFFWHITEPEOPLELIKE click it you won't regret it

Cool Cupcake

I want a cupcake cake for my birthday.

*Fun Fact** My sister and I have the same birthday.

So I thought it would be fun for us to have a big ass Cupcake as our birthday cake.

They also have to pan to make your own at Target

BTW It's January 14th....punks;]

Blackberry Storm

I knew this was going to happen....

My sister and my love wants this phone.

Its 200 each.....

He already sold his iPhone. I personally think the iPhone is still better...but watevs

They're not going to listen to me anyway.

The Blackberry is shiny and BRAND NEW!!!

So I decided to jus put him on our plan. MUHAHAHHAAA 

Verizon is nice and all but that shit expensive to start up. Plus sometimes they have like back up fees. When taking a new customer....

Aww Christmas.

Oggle the video....

I picked this one cause his voice is nice LOL

Have You Ever....

listened to a white person' s conversation on the train?

Ummm its pretty boring stuff. 

I have a theory I 'll let you know when I'm fix the kinks and oil the parts

Reflections....

I might as well light my Christmas tree...on fire.

I have no money so I guess I will be Tiny Tim-ing it this year. Full of good cheer and broke.

But I'm a good girl this year and I hopeful have another job coming my way.

In other Broke Ass Chicka News.

 My birthday is coming and I'm going to be 20! I'm officially not a teenager....but still in limbo. 

I have an old soul, so age doesn't affect me. I feel like a 35 year old woman trapped within childlike confinements and rules.

I wanna have a nice birthday something I can remember. I remember birthdays where I did laundry, nothing much, ate cake. I never really felt mad or felt like something was due to me cause I made another 365 days pass by.....

but still...

I've been reflecting on 2008 It was slow and fast at the same time. I spent the year going through growing pains. I felt like GOD was putting my life in slow motion. It was slow to the point where I was literally watching seconds feel like hours. Choices waiting for decisions.

People taking me for granted. It felt like everyone was moving forward and I had a boulder to carry and a broken watch. 

In a sense I knew it was happening to me and I wondered WTF?! Can my plans go the way I want it?!

I'm glad for 2008 cause it leads to 2009 which I will be out....As soon as they say 3, 2, 1 Happy New Year!!!

At the begining of 2008 I promised myself to be truthful and try not to deny or cover up what I feel. 

I told my mother a dark secret. One I kept to myself for years....Everytime I would hear this story she would recite and feel so happy, sure of herself. I felt depressed. I told her and I felt so much better. I opened myself up to a certain Kermit and I'm glad I did. 

The truth hurts....

I think it hurts more when only you know.

btw I'm reading Twilight. ummm Am I the only one who feels that book is kinda predictable. I'm going to write a book because I'm sure I can come up with a better story.

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Antimatter

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....I got lazy don't feel like finding two more

B.)Answer the following questions using only one word.

1. Where is your cell phone? Couch
2. Where is your significant other? Michael K [SOHO] working
3. Your hair color? Dark Brown/Black
4. Your mother? Scott J Aveda Salon
5. Your father? Jamaica
6. Your favorite thing? Me
7. Your dream last night? Naughty
8. Your dream/goal? Be My Own Boss
9. The room you're in? Livingroom
10. Your hobby? Creating Outfits
11. Your fear? Failure
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Living my Dream
13. Where were you last night? Home
14. What you're not? Gay
15. One of your wish-list items? Ipod Touch
16. Where you grew up? Everywhere
17. The last thing you did? Post a Comment
18. What are you wearing? ...Jus a outfit I flung together....still looks good 
19. Your TV? Off
20. Your pet? Trying to hump my brother
21. Your computer? New, iMac, Leopard 20 inch 
22. Your mood? Optimistic
23. Missing someone? YES
24. Your car? D Train
25. Something you're not wearing? Panties...It needs a breeze every now and then 
26. Favorite store?  Karmaloop[Virtual Store]
27. Your summer? Hot as tits and sweaty
28. Love someone? Of course
29. Your favorite color? Purple Bitches
30. When is the last time you laughed? Last nite
31. Last time you cried? A couple months ago....nice breakdown. Oprah would be proud
32. Are you a bitch? Why yess...but you started 
33. Favorite Position?  Bow legged...
34. Favorite Past Time? Thinking
35. Are you a hater or a lover? Lover
37. Are you genuine or fake? Genuine. Only fake when necessary, i.e. bill collectors
38. Any Vices? Chocolate
39. Pro Life or Wire Hanger? Life
40. McCAIN or OBAMA? Obama
41. Pro Plastic or Natural? Natural
42. Dream Job? Whatever Pharrell's does 

Human Heart by Kimberly Lennox

Love....

You ever wanted to kill that person...

Like really kill that person. You had a plan and everything. I mean you wanted them to still have life afterwards but you though about it. You ever look at that person and you felt disgusted for a moment. Couldn't stand their habits and the way they acted...their fakeness, The way they ate and even their breathing got on your nerves jus ticking at your at your sanity. Cracking into your very psyche, you want to scream at them but all you could do was chew your food and roll your eyes.

You try to go on with your day and alll you could do was always find a fucking way to relate what's going on to that person. Even when you're angry at that person you thought of them. 

You ever find yourself safe in their arms, at home. When they leave you feel the warmth leave you. You can feel the shape of them still

You ever find yourself sniffing the clothes they left at your house. No one else smells anything but you do...and you love it for some reason [mad weird I know]

Sometimes your mind races with a thousand things to say and all you say is nothing.

You walk down the street and a bubble of laughter or smile comes across your face. You look like a damn jackass but you remember that stupid shit that happened awhile back and it showed on your face. 

You're doing nothing in particular and this wave of love hits you...wrings your soul and sways and pushes you to the point where it physically hurts. You look at them and you notice something about them you never did before....

and its beautiful

You lose track of time....ALL THE TIME

Forget about the consequences of your actions because a little more time with them was worth it.

Forgot about your responsibilities, talk about the future, imaginary money, and your perfect condo. Down to the bedsheets and what colored walls. 

You can't wait to better yourself....

 so you can shower them with the things they deserve in life

It's 2 in the morning. 

This is for everyone I love.  

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.

I hate this....

They cut my hours at my job.......

Drugdealing sounds very nice at this moment.

Britney's Circus [Sweet]

I've been listening to Britney Spears' Circus.

Here's the breakdown. I like it, isn't as good as Blackout people really missed out on that album.I think she was smart in her selections. She still gave us some old school britney type songs and the while making sure we hear the synth pop she's currently going for. Plus she added 'Radar' a song that was previously on Blackout. I think she wants you to go back and listen to Blackout. That was a comeback album but she was still "off" when she released that. She keeps it safe. Although not as many songs popped out on Circus for me. I think its good for her to start her warm up. She doing what she does best, shit to dance to and she does take a step back from BLACKOUT but she steps forward from her previous albums. She's a entertainer and she does it well....

Don't front as much as  people hate her you do find yourself singing in your head some britney song....

Can't see the unfolding. I jus wish she would go to Tyra or Beyonce for a lacefront....

I know my weaves and wigs people and she needs to fire her stylist and hire someone that lnows their extensions

I give this a solid 7 out 10

Sentence Enhancers

Nigglet.

Nigga but the small or adolescence version.

I usually use this as a term of endearment towards friends and family.

I'm sorry that word is too funny....

I will be using for a long while.

I believe in making up your own words, If you say it and people automatically know what you're talking about then its a word. 

I mean english is just a bunch of different words from different cultures and how we say it, its not how we write it down. Words are always changing and moving. 

So....Fuck it

nigglet  NigG'LET [informal]

noun

* person; small person; teenagers: Hurry up nigglet, we got to go

Flabbergasted is a word.

Case closed.

Britney performs in London

I just need her to hit up Beyonce's Wigologist/Stylist.

Give her a few months. She'll get in her niche

Hmmm...

I noticed that I like older men. 

I had a crush on Sean Connery when I was little. When XMen came out I had a major crush on Hugh Jackman, wasn't even looking at icicle dude or Cyclops at all. Now I watched the Transporter 3 last saturday and I was looking at Jason Statham like "DAYUM" his body was all types of gorgeous. His 8 pack, his back, hell, even his low haircut and accent. I mean I would literally jump over Zac Efron for a piece of him.

I really started to evaluate myself and see if this was just a coincidence or I really like older dudes. So I started with the shows I watched. Here's one Example

TRUEBlood

Jason Stackhouse

or Bill Compton.

Bill.

 [btw if you're not watching TRUEBlood you're missing out

I love Will Smith more that he's older....

Maybe it's the authority and power, the wisdom, the confidence, the experience

or it's just because I had NO father figure in my life and inadvertently my mind is naturally attracted to them. Even growing up I find myself not relating to people my age. I find them boring and predictable. I love having intimate conversations with one or two people. I can't stand large groups, and that's all people my age wants to do. Have a bunch of people and have fun. They find me weird for being quiet and observing them. I guess they see it as me being a boring stuck up bitch, plus I look good so that's not helping me. I usually loosened up as the night unfolds but I have to push myself. I rather listen to older people. I love listening to older people, hear what they are going through and so on and so forth. Collecting data for my life and what to do and what not to do. If I am ever interested in someone my age they gotta have an old soul, like you can see the wisdom in their eyes. You can hear the determination in their voice.They jus have this thing about them. Like have you ever jus caught yourself staring at someone wanting to know what's their story? Like they draw you into them, like a magnet. That's what I am talking about...I mean people my age do have this quality. IDK I like them older than me. It goes the other way around too, Older men will approach me more often than people my own age. I always knew I would date people like 6,7 years my senior. So I wondered how did  Joshua [19] attracted me to him? I already knew the answer deep down. He had an old soul and I loved that about him. But still he was a surprise....

But back to the point, Don't get me wrong you won't find me stalking the senior citizen's home anytime soon. I love men in general, young and old. I'll just stare down the older one a little longer. 

Here some older men I enjoy

Handbag Wishlist

Steve Madden

I thought this was cute...Its eenamaria

I found this at Ninewest

Aldo

....I have no handbags and I need these in my life.

Recession you have trumped me this time

Christmas is coming....BITCHES!!!

It's 2 in the morning but I could care less people It's December 1st and my brain is twitching....