Tee Hee

I like someone a lot. Its strange how things change....

"J" [Bitter/Sweet]

On Tuesday, I came to get the mail and I got a personal letter. I was excited, I never really got a letter old school style. I found it funny it had no return address. I feverishly opened to see what was inside. It was a newspaper clipping and a post-it attached to it. The post-it said

Shoshannah call now!!!

-J

It was an article for a car sale. Not any car sale but a 99$ dollar one. I was like "Bullshit". Really?! Cars for 99 dollars? I have shoes that cost more than that. It was going to happen this saturday and registration was thursday. After I read the article, mind you I'm still in my small ass lobby frozen by the staircase, I went upstairs told my mom and she examined the envelope. She said it never went to the post office someone dropped it in the mailbox.

I felt like I was playing Blue's Clues

*Its a J name

*Person knew where I live

*Person knew I was thinking bout getting a car.

The third clue is tricky cause I really didn't let people know I wanted a car, I don't even have my license.

I texted all my J friends no results

So I came to the conclusion that on sunday morning Jesus was reading the New Rochelle newspaper, enjoying his bread and butter with honey vanilla chamomile tea and came across this article. He remembered one of my prayers and clipped it out. He took a post-it from his desk, made a quick note and mailed it out. Jesus knew I was having a rough time he sent it out express Godmail also known as Gmail. There's no return address cause of that. Plus it was a regular handwriting he didn't want to give it all away. lol

Now I can get a car, but just like my life, dumb little bullshit things always prevent me from my destination. I need a license to register and I need some money smh. I can get my sister's godfather to do that. Now I had a plan for the money but thats another post. Ill find a way by saturday. This opportunity doesn't come often. I'm not letting it slip away.

Whoever J is ....

Thank You

My First Photoshop Exercise

My first exercise from class it was yellow. but somewhere when i saved it it turned blue idk. Whatevs. I'm learning slowly but surely lol

Hello!

I need a favor to ask. Any of you guys know of a good studio?

Driving Down The Block

This is my jam of the moment. Enjoy it's Saturday.

Pinkberry Stoop Kids

David and I

Today was a good day. We chilled in Soho/Union Square/Greenwich Village.

Sasha, David, Adam and I. It was just a regular shoot the shit day. I came up with some good marketing ideas and strategies.

Tuesday.

Tuesday's Highlights

Blah a speedy race to class with misty sweat all over my body. I'm hot and bothered but I made it on time. I pick a seat and breathe outwards blowing my hair. I put my bag on my thighs and pulled out my notebook, the printout and dig furiously for a pen. I relax and tense up again as I realized that my phone volume is still up. MY god what if people hear my ringtone in the middle of class, when there's an awkward silence passing

Katt Williams' voice

It might be bugs on the rest of you mugs, but aint no bugs on me ha ha

10 minutes pass

15 minutes pass

....... ..... .... . .... ........

......WTF are you serious?! Did I become moist and sweaty for no damn reason. Did I get up early for a stupid class and I could of been sleeping soundly in my bed? Fuck you CUNY Lehman! I went to your school cause I needed to go to school. Hunter I love you very dearly and I will be with you shortly, just give it time okay?

*My outfit made me proud today. I have never had so many eyeballs on me. Some old west indian lady "She said I had too much meat out" I proceeded to begin to curse this lady out. She kept saying the same thing and finally said "You got meat and thats a good thing, you look great" I thank her and we exchanged hugs.

*Adam and I discovered that his Cousin's dog is blind.

*I have never walked so much in my life.

*Saw Drop it Low video....SMH Chris Brown looks good and he was dancing like a bojangles trying to get his fans back. Dance, shake it out, Dance the Rihanna beatdown out of our memories. I'm sorry I was thinking rude thoughts I feel ashamed

WHY HE SO SEXY?!

Movie Trailers: Sherlock Holmes

I think I have a crush on Robert Downey. I like older men anyway.....

This is gonna be good. I love Christmas Time

Friday. [Sweet]

I went to a Birthday Party on Friday nite with Franchesca and Britney. It was a good night. There was some old black guy having the time if his life at the party too. No one knew how he got there but he did lol. He looked like something from the boondocks prolly that blind guy but way nicer.

Hair white and afro'd out. He was wearing a orange shirt and blue jeans. He was so wrong, he was right. People were dancing, I was getting ready and I was looking forward to the nite. I was looking good, smelling good and looking forward to be single to gawk and stare and grope and visually rape with my eyes. I felt like my eyes were getting fed. It was a good looking crowd and I was feeling myself. I was a panther on the prowl. Dancing is my favorite sport. My God bitch I'm good at it.

Shoshannah is dancing throw a spotlight on that. Light man swings spotlight. Camera zooms on her donk and they all watched in amazment as she ticked and tocked and swirl those hips. She throws on a growl and swings up from her lion mane and says silently

"Can You Handle This?"

^ There's my lion mane oh yes....

There was a skateboarder we smoke with. He was from Maine and he's living in Brooklyn. He took to the challenge.

"I will take the challenge and I will tame her too."

We started to dance. I thought he was cute, so I gave him a combo move. A BBB, then followed by A BA AB and then I gave him a XY ABAB. The music was fire *I was Anita Bakering [Giving him the best that I've got] him. He was handling it and actually doing it to his own rhythm. Which is a talent in itself. Some dude came up to us and told me to break his shit. LMAO

The song finished and I gave him a handclap, not many can handle my caboose. He did a little touchdown dance. I enjoyed myself. People bought drinks I didnt pay for shit.

Like everything in life you can't go too long without a little fuckery. Throughout the nite, I was harassed by some dude in a military cap. I hate those fucking hats. I was dancing and he asked if I wanted a drink. I said "No, but Thank You" He tried dancing with me. I politely danced away from him. He kept insisting that he buys me a drink and we talk. No.

He was harassing me to the point where Ricardo, the birthday boy had to talk to him. Even after that he was still thirsty. He was trying to grab my hand and whisk me away somewhere. Ugh, Nigga do I look like H2O? We finished the nite with Nathan's and a train ride home.

....I need a camera. I'm missing out on way too many memories. lol

Pixie Market: Dorothy Remix

BUY NOW

Wouldn't mind clicking these together. It won't take me home but it'll take me somewhere wonderful

Lust for Life. [Bitter/Sweet]

"I gotta certain lust for life....

...They tryin' to shoot down my flight, before it lands

"I would like to believe that I'm the shit...

It's not that hard, cause I am ;)" -Bang/Bang

Adam.

Finally Bish. I was wondering who the hell is Adam? LOL

Well Let's start at the beginning

wavy ass lines, more wavy ass lines, Wavy lines getting straighter to a flashback.

Adam was a cool dude. He was Funny. He was apart of discipleship. The same class Josh and I were taking among other friends. I always saw him and he always saw me. We didn't talk. Our circles meshed and this dude was super funny. I can't resist not having a funny friend. Can You? I officially spoke to him at a party last winter. He was posted up against a wall underneath a black light and I saw him not dancing and I can't have it. So I approached him and asked him to dance with him. He wouldn't, I dance on him anyway.

We smoked together that night.

It's amazing how things unfold by such a little moment in life.

Around March I asked him for his number, I wasn't cheating. Josh was right there. I was really looking for a guy friend because I never really had one because they always liked me more than a friend. no bish I'm not conceited theses are facts. So Anygay. We hung out with his friends and it was fun I felt like I finally had a niche, a clique, a posse, a squad, a friend family a...

Britney Meltdown....aight stand by, Do we have the clippers? Ok,We're on in 5. 4. 3. 2. 1

Adam was dropping bombs or he would like to call hints.

I thought he was a liar. A typical guy move, just corrupting his competition to get to me.

Wrong.

I found out through him. if you dont know click here

Honestly I was using him to get to the truth. I knew something was up. Josh was acting weird.

I was gonna move on. Call our friendship and tell him I no longer would like to subscribe.

I was going to quietly exit the scene. He wouldn't let me go. I would find a way and he would find a way. He won me over. He was the only one who tried to comfort me. Who actually knew what was going on in the clutter old cat lady that I called my brain. Adam played his cards right. I'm not oblivious to how men think. Something wouldn't let me shake him off completely. Something genuine, He was something like me. It was weird. I shared my shame with him.

I cried in front of him

He made me realize that I'm more than a woman. IDK how to explain. He made me realize my power and how I was lowering the settings so as to not to make people jealous, or angry, or just feel some type of way. For some reason people hate people who enjoy life lol. Worrying should I turn my shine down for the sake of others? He's my Nigga. I'm his Nigga.

We have so much in common and nothing in common.

Yes he's fucked up for opening his mouth...but let's be honest. Josh was never going to tell me. Adam liked me, and knew the truth. Plus I was Sherlock Holmes on his ass. Umm Like Duh...

Thank You Adam for making me laugh and walking me through this time in my life....

sidenote: I lost the iPod Josh got me for Christmas around March. I never lose anything. Here's my mom's advice, anything that breaks, gets lost, or etc. If it was a present from a loved one. Shit will ensue...always.