Heartsicle

Its sideways oh wells ya'll can figure it out lol. Almost done although my ass does lose motivation towards the end. I WILL FINISH. I think I'll do one for Rihanna.

CUNY Lehman

I get to sign up for classes on aug 4th. good shit.

The Thirstiness [BitterSweet]

Umm I been off the market for about 2, 3 years and I guess I must of attain the magical ring from Lords of the Ring embedded deep down in the orifice that is my Matrix [that's my vagina, for you simple folk] The News spread like wildfire and I've been beating niggas off of me worse than the people in Resident Evil.

Its Nice, Its Flattering but then you feel kinda overwhelmed by it all.

The Thirstiness is at an all time high and it doesn't help that I'm single.

Everyone is trying different ways to bag me, instead of just talking to me.

I'm about to become asexual in 3.....2........1

Nothing feels like Home. [Bittersweet]

I haven't been home in two days. Watched Harry Potter with the Bestie, slept over, hopped my butt over to Franchesca's spend the day with her and slept over and I finally returned home.

I've been feeling homeless. I feel like a Nomad. I feel like I need to find my home, I love my family but I want my own place to call home. I hate roommates, deadass I can't do that shit. I know if I do I'm gonna feel like its not my place being courteous and shit. I'm not a big ass slob but I like walking round naked. I like going to bed at 3 in the morning. Drawing all nite on hardwood floors with art supplies everywhere. I love blasting my music and dancing for absolutely no reason. I like cooking and munching on grapes late at nite, but I never take a bowl. I just pluck them straight from the bag, wash them in my hands, sit down, eat them, wait and do the same shit all over again. I like having my sunday baths hogging the bathroom for the whole day like my own personal spa. Doing different characters while cleaning and doing my chores.

Now I'm sure I can find someone as zanny as my ass, but then I like being alone.

Being Alone!!

I'm going back to CUNY Lehman for my transfer credit assessment and getting things set in stone basically. I can't wait for July 28th to come any sooner. Like I never wanted a month to end so damn bad. I should have enough money by august 1st to start my bartending adventures. Hopefully Bartending will make my dream apt. come true. You Know What, it WILL make my Dream Apt come true.

August is gonna be the fucking month. I can feel it.

Lady Gagafication

I think I have a Bladder Infection from holding my water too long. Its not my cup of tea......

TMI?

I don't care.

In Other News. I can't wait for school to start. New People. New Classes. Just New.

One of my goals this lovely school semester is to take it there.

Take it there? Whateva do you mean?

I mean to push the envelope, to be the best I can be. I want to Lady Gaga it. I want to be an Icon in my school. I want to leave a lasting impression on everyone I meet.

I have this whole year to completely change.

I mean come on my name is Shoshannah like would you expect anything less LOL

Try new things. Date. Fashion. Bold.

Ooo Saliva is on my keyboard from all the drooling. Anyways I have a plan. Ill tell you later.

Besos,

Bang Bang

P.S. I'm trying a new signature instead of Nana,its Bang Bang. HMMM Now Ill prolly keep trying til one of them fits me or Ill jus keep Nana. Maybe Bam Bam. Suggestions?

Nike Terminator Hi Supreme QK [Swagger]

A sneaker worthy of my praise.

Drops July 25th

Ready?

Ooo Girl I want a fade.....

Why is everyone shaving off the sides of their hair? Did I miss something? LOL

Now watch everyone and they mom shave their hair when they damn well shouldn't, think this thru ppl. I know imma see 10 fucked up, not the hairstyle for you, star crunch neck back fuckery for every 1 person that pulls it off. Only a few can pull it off. Now since Rihanna did it.

It's Over.

Let the MindNinjaFuck of my eyeballs and me screaming

WHHHHHYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!????

in my mind begin.

Ponyo: Trailer

I would love to live in Hiyao Miyazaki's mind. I wish American Cartoons would step up their game. I'm so there August 14th.

Rich People Shop Better: The Series

Nicholas Kirkwood’s Fall 2009 Shoe Collection

Waiting to Fall 2009

Topshop

American Apparel

Bebe

80%20

He Cheated. [BitterSweet]

Hmm I never really talked about my situation with my heart being grinded into mince meat.

IDK I'm a private person lol but then again I don't know you people and will never care to know your opinions bout me so oh wells.

He cheated.

gasp* OMG shannah I thought you were a bad bish. How could this happen?

I know, I know but even people cheat on halle berry and she has a team behind her, so my ass aint different.

I knew in the back of my mind that shit was going to happen, cause I know that dipshit too well. Which is kinda horrifying to watch shit you knew was going to happen, HAPPEN.

Its only the third week. I'm chipper and keeping my spirits high but idk people swear im a robot or some shit lol.

"You seem to be taking this all well"

"Why yes I am. Weed is helping me a lot. If It wasn't for weed I'd prolly be covered in paint drawing dumb shit and wallowing in my pain. Followed by random walks at 3 in the morning and bathing for 4 hours at a time"

awkward silence

"Okay"

We resolved the issue and decided to take a break. Whick basically means. Get our shit together and I'll see you on the other side. Which is about a year.

Now there will be no phucking and etc. He already had his fun. But to be honest I didn't have my fun. I mean is it wrong to date other guys and party and smoke and drink and be a FUCKING 20 year old.

I been a good girl all my life, always passed my classes, upstanding citizen, never gave mom a problem. I'm dead serious I was the perfect child. Let's evaluate

*I never smoked weed til I was out of highschool

*I never drank until I went to college

*I passed my regents with fly fucking colors without getting help from tutors

English 97

US History 90

Global 88

Math 85

Earth Science 85

GPA 85%

I didn't do shit for my last semester of my senior year my gpa would of been higher.

*I never had a boyfriend, cause I didn't want unnecessary distractions

*I read books and drew.

*I never been in a fight. NEVER.

*I know how to cook, clean, and take care of my younger siblings.

It's hard being this way around all the phuckery that is called the Bronx.

I pat myself on the back for this, I'm really thinking bout this shit I must of been the "ONE" of the Bronx Matrix. lol

Now I reap the benefits of my reward.

I deserve this shit. I'm not here for x, y, z. I'm here for me.

Now I don't think he deserves to do the same as me cause honestly he doesn't fucking deserve to. He needs to get his shit together. That would be kinda phucked up. He did me dirty and does whatever he wants on this break and still gets me at the end.

Bitch Please, This ain't Disney.

I feel like his ass was taking me for granted cause I'm not your typical girl and he must of thought I was. Welp now he'll see. Everytime he talking to some girl or no one catches his jokes and realize day by day that I'm a fucking anomaly to what is defined as a woman.

Now am I justified in my thinking?

Goal Updates

I got into CUNY Lehman. Check

I did eat more balanced, I try to cancel out my junk food consumption with fruits and water. It gets like half a check

Fake ID: FAIL lol *tears on my pillow*

Today is the last day of the Afro Punk Festival...I don't think Imma make it : Fail

Watched church play:check It was really good like OD

Well I went out on saturday and some guy like the way I looked so I gave him a chance usually I dismiss niggas but I'm trying something different.

Plus he was bold.

You look pretty without the makeup too, rite?

[smirks] *obviously this nigga don't know shoshannah.*

[conceited voice]

Yea I'm sure

I put my number in some wackass looking prepaid phone. [minus one point.] He gave his middle name at first but then gave me his real name which is Paul.

Aww I never met a Paul. He says he's a personal trainer and he had his own business card [plus 3 points]

I like a dude with a plan.

I mean Im not looking for a phuck buddy or anything else jus some attention lol. It doesn't hurt.

Garden State

This trailer is beautiful. So was the movie. I feel like I'm at that stage discovering myself and my purpose in life.

Plus the song was orgasmic when I downloaded it. I did it by mistake, favorite mistake. I played it over and over. To this day I never get tired of it.

Frou Frou- Let Go

Imogen Heap is the best.

.....cause there beauty in the breakdown.

btw it made the top 50 trailers of all time. Booyah!!

Mini Goals.

Goals to accomplish this week

*Cuny Lehman and beg like no other lol

*Get a fake ID: I want to party, keep my mind off things

*Get myself arm candy/sugar daddy. Don't get it twisted or dreaded, I'm not a golddigger just an oppurtunist. I can get one without doing anything sexual.

Are you that good Nana?

Why yes I am. In fact I went out and had fun without sex and spent only like 45 dollars.....wait for it... wait for it... I spent 45 for the WEEK!!!

*gasp* bitch you are good

I know, don't doubt next time.

*Go to Afro Punk Festival

*Watch the Youth Play at church this friday. Its friday though....*tear* Last year it was good I'll watch it. Its about lesbians....

*Eat Balanced and healthy

I think those are good goals for the week.

Kiss the rings bitch

Movie Trailers: A Series?

Over at IFC they made a list of the top 50 movie trailers of all time. I almost wet myself at the titalation over what they chose and etc. The Matrix popped into my head. That was a movie that changed EVERYTHING.

Katt Williams: Everything? [slaps stool] EV-VA-RE-THANG!!!

It was number 32. Here's the link if you wanna reminiscence.

I thought I would start a series of posts of movie trailers I love and new ones that had me shivering in the movie theatre because of its pure awesomeness.

Hmm...Twas a Good Week

You ever look at your phone and you always see the same time over and over?

My lucky times are

1:14

2:14

and

11:11

I think 11:11 is my favorite time to look at. LOL cause no other time has 4 of the same numbers.

*sigh* I'm a loser I know, [walks toward the corner and faces the wall]

I've been out every single day except for wednesday. *Gasp* You phucking street rat lol.....

I tried to chill out for sunday but I went out anyways.

Monday I watched Star Trek with Adam [Ill explain who Adam is in an upcoming post]

Tuesday I went to Josh's House and watched Adam's nephew Andre [It was his first bday]

While Adam and Co. fixed the backyard that mexicanos would be pround of.

Wednesday I stayed in.

Thursday Chilled in Co-Op City with Adam and Franchesca. Ate. Weed. Bookstore.

Went back to Fran's Apt. We danced round the coffee table while Adam watched lol. He got a free show.

Narrator:

....As he thirstly watches as Fran danced and beckoned Shoshannah with her hands ever so slightly. Shoshannah Flowed across to her as if she had no feet. They held hands as they fell into each others' rhythm. The booming beat vibrating throught their bodies. Adam put his hand through his hair and adjusted in his seat. Franchesca and Shoshannah let the beat of the music take them. He could feel the seduction.....

Thank You Narrator.

You're welcome Nana

Anyways one of Fran's Love Interest comes and we buy more weed, Kush. He pays and he paid for our late stuffing of our faces at Burger King. I felt like we were all on a date.

Friday Franchesca, The Bestie Emily, and I were suppose to see Transformers but we went to a get together in Queens instead. It was a really nice neighborhood. Like rich. I felt poor looking at it. We drank hang out and smoked some stuff that took me to another level.

It was serious I high fived Jesus, type of high. I felt bad for Emily cause it was her first time smoking and she didnt get high and we were all jackasses.

I'm sorry I gave Emily a glimpse of the dark side.....

Saturday hanged out with my sis Sasha and bro Seth ate. Went to see transformeers in New Roc City. Twas good. Review is coming for that one.

Sunday. Went to Josh's House got high, watched dummy friends lite firecrackers and almost lite themselves, the trees and my hair on fire. LOL

Good Week.

WTF?! Vibe

Okay this shouldn't be the last issue you go out with and honestly a decade from now we won't remember any of them.

Umm The Dream is bored as fuck even though he is cupping christina's tits.

Christina Millian clearly is working 110% with the sexy face lol. Now if I could tell your working your sexy face then its not sexy.

Does anyone else notices how Christina is able to cover most of The Dream? Umm She's mad petite and he's not so I'm wondering

Christina's Dye Job. *Blank Stare*

Overall I think they should of gone the funny route. They're not a sex symbol couple.

Christina should of held The Dream's titties LMAO

My previous rant on Vibe

July: Will You Heal What June Did To Me?

June was the worst month so far. So much shit has hit the fan, the fan is not even working. The fan has hit the shit and twirl it around. I was naive and bubblegum but I'm still on the grind. Phuck out of here I WILL find a fucking way. I'm the tiger Katt Willians was talking about.

* More CUNY Bullshit

*Family is grasping at straws[moneywise]

*Joshua. Mind Fuck of a confusing situation.

*My hair is acting up. This happens anytime drama flairs its ugly head lol.

I could continue and tell you the intricate details but I'm lazy.

btw totally forgot to upload my killer glasses lol rocking my ciara ponyta. Like a mini GO GIRL lol.

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.