I Want It. [Sweet]

Cotton Spandex
Micro-Mesh Gloria-V Bodysuit

Pics via YBF
I've seen this top over and over again. I looked it up, it was American Apparel. I love this one piece. I can't see it not be done justice.

Angela got it..somewhat. Just treat it like a regular shirt. I like the white pants then somewhere she lost me with her cowboy tassle boot thingy and her purse. I know her purse is real but its been knocked so many times It jus looks cheap. I hate that stupid print.

Teaira wore it with sequin hot pants and some nine west shoes....Blah. They're all cute pieces but together it just looks blah blah blah. Plus Teyana is wearing a jeans jacket. Teaira looks thirsty for attention LOL

Meagan wore it with her disco pants [American Apparel] and a leather jacket....Too much black and the jacket is too big. I would of like to see her with just the one piece LOL SEXY.

The mesh part goes all the way to the bottom. growls

It's 40 dollars that mad cheap!!! I'm geting it.

It only comes in black though *sigh* Click Here if you want it......YOU BETTA DO IT JUSTICE OR I'M COMING FOR YOU!!!!!!

P.S. i think its nice that celebrities or semi-celebrities wear shit I cam actually afford sometimes. What I don't like is when they phucked it up.

Qaadir Howard: Homely Baby, Cute Stroller

Tis is my favorite Youtube buddy. He makes my day a little better with his rants and daily life experiences. ENJOY!

Still Sick.....

I'm not feeling this at all. I want to get up and go. So I do....... then collapse back into the bed and fall asleep for a couple more hours. My mom asked me to clean up the kitchen.....

I can't even clean myself, without heaving and hoing like a fat person going up stairs. [too much?]

Nope I won't be the one. There are plenty of capable hands in here. I will sit down like Rosa Parks and just like her, my ass will be too tired to care about the rules and regulations. You know damn well her back + ass was too tired to give a fuck. Like she went on the bus thinking I'm standing up for my rights! I'm starting a Revolution.

Boo.

Don't act like you never thought of it before. That story was a huffed and puffed up. Don't call a paragraph an essay!

Anyways all I can do is post. So I WILL

The Dreaded Swimsuit [Bittersweet]

I can't swim or forgot to.....Last time I was like 9, 10. I haven't gone to the beach since Jamaica which was 9 years ago. I think I an going to the beach this year I have to find a swimsuit that's flattering to my ass. All the while hiding and reveiling the stuff that need to hidden and reveiled. I am gonna end up crying in a fitting room somewhere, I feel it. Sometimes I hate being a perfectionist.

Optimistic Nana: Everyone is fat nowadays so you'll look good no matter what

Pessimistic Nana: I can't believe you tried to justify that shit. You know you wanna look good. Ain't your boyfriend mad skinny? He'll make you look obese.

Optimistic Nana: Curves aint fat. Jus tone yourself. Watch your junk food habits, play some biggest loser and exercise. You'll find the swimsuit of your dreams.

Pessimistic Nana: Oh my God just give it up. I don't even feel like going to the beach its jus sand and water. grainy ass sand. Plus you'll have those nasty nigglets raping you with their eyes....I can imagine it now. Even if you get a swimsuit you'll still feel self conscious.

Optimistic Nana: Oooo Think of all the hair dos and makeup to go with your swimsuit. You can go retro with a big straw sun hat. Or wear a cute one piece like Beyonce's Bday photoshoot. Plus you can learn how to swim and not be a stereotype LOL. Fuck it we all are not perfect and you have no problem with your confidence so suck it up bitch.

Pessismistic Nana: I know she does need to suck it up. Worried bout a damn swimsuit, Bitch we still outta school how we gonna get BACK IN. Plus you need a fake ID. You know they will leave your ass at home for the summer.

Optimistic Nana: Yea you need to make tracks quickly.....

Yeah..... that's how it is in my mind. I would go on but I digress.

Any tips would help or stores. My ass will be on the beach.

Memorial Day.

Its Memorial Day and I feel like DOODOO. Ugh I slept until 2 today.

Oh wells No Barbeque for me. Its not like we actually remember what we're SUPPOSE to remember. All I remember on Memorial Day is last year's barbeque.

Keep it Real.

Sickly,

Nana

Ugh......[Bitter]

Krystal[middle] and I

I went to this party last nite......I should of left at 10 pm and went to bed so I wouldn't feel like shit for church lol. There was a toddler there and a baby....

Blank Stare

The music was mad fucking loud for no reason. I thought the baby was gonna go deaf.

Times passes and it seems mad niggas came with no ladies like really.....

Sausage party. I smoked and went bout my business and danced with a purple balloon.

The picture is from above is from another wackass salsa/bachata party. Now I have nothing against my latino bitches but DAMN you gotta warn me what I am getting into.

Imagine you getting ready for some salsa/bachata and to dance it out with ur partner you show up and all they playing is ghetto hardcore rap music....It just fucks with your state of mind

Now I don't mean to brag but lets keep it real. Reggae Music always keeps the party live.

Drops Mic****

Wolverine [Sweet]

Yesterday I went to go see Wolverine with my old ass schoolmate. We were in the same class for like 4 years or some shit like that. I found his ass on facebook [thank you facebook] Fuck myspace I couldn't find shit on that website everyone wanted so much damn privacy cause obviously someone told them they were the shit. dUMB ASS nick names and PPL TAlKiN LiKE tHis....

Yes, but anyways we caught up on the 6 years we missed. Highschool, College, Alcohol Poisoning, Stalkers, Etc

The movie was good. IDK who thought that movie was gonna be action packed was severly mistaken. Come on its' Wolverine's story that shit was bound to be full of Spicy Soap Opera drama. Ryan Reynold's part was small and funny as shit. Why is this nigga so highlarious for no reason.

Anyways we ate Coldstone's. Well I ate a portion... Mohammed ate most of mine. We were deciding whether to take the 2 train and transfer to the 4 train or just take the shuttle and take the 4 train.

We took the shuttle. We were waiting for the fucking 4 train for a century. I was pissed. I mean we were talking and shit...but its only so long before my ass gets antsy.

He said I should of listened to him. Whomp I should of just walked to the D train.

The train finally comes and it was packed. Ugh I hate it. People sitting down are mad intimate with my love triangle and my ass is uncomfortable reaching so high for the bar.

So we talking and we about to hit 138th/concourse and the train stops and all the lights go out. A minute later the conductor says the train and track lost power. We can't move.

WTF?!

That's like finally catching a cab and he doesn't know where you live.

There was a group of girls that were funny as hell. So that ease the fuckery...

CONT'D .....

[my ass is tired lol]

Black Heart Inertia [Sweet]

Well I have been twindling my thumbs for some time to hear Incubus' new album and I wasn't disappointed with the single....AT ALL. I always learn new words from them. Reading is fundamental.

Yay!

Here's their video. Enjoy.

Almost....

Don't mind my house dress, granny gave it to me and I feel comfortable in it
I randomly bought this one at the friendly neighborhood beauty supply store. I swear everyone and their mothers were there. It's BRUCCI its called Blooming Lilacs.

Its alrite I had to tone it down with some lipgloss called Desert, but I would wear this. I just need it to have some type nude/tan base so I don't look HUNGRY as my mother would say.

The Perfect Matte Pink Lipstick

Ugh this has been on my agenda for some time now but I just haven't gotten around to it. I'm looking for that matte bright bubblegum lipstick. Nothing fushcia or too deep.

Like this

Chester French: A Review

I hanven't done an Album/Mixtape review since Lady Gaga. I really haven't been on on music shit in awhile. Btw I'm sick of bitches using Lady Gaga quotes for their away AIM messages, Facebook and Myspace Status and fucking Twitter. Its gets old real quick, QUICK.

Okay I love this album it has a flowing concept and is actually executed well unlike Lupe Fiasco's The Cool [The album is tough but that concept did not flow] I like the skits like Kanye. It a really good album I didn't feel like skipping anything which is weird for me. I always play it through the first time, but you still get the feeling to skip some shit even though you don't. It has all my favorite artists. Here's where it gets sticky.

A. Do I actually like Chester French?

OR

B. Do I like the Collaborations? Am I really focusing on them?

So I found out they wrote and produce all the songs. Which is really good cause WTF would of pop up if they didn't. With all the collabos and glitter. So they actually have talent. Whew. Pharell signed them and I hope they do better than Teyana Taylor. Where the hell is she, Is she fluffing her hair somewhere? No one is googling her [low blow, lol] So thumbs up for Chester French.

I need some ENDURANCE summer is coming and my ass ain't ready.

I'm not gonna rate this one. It's wasn't a date more like a social gathering I'll wait for their album. [BTW I've been saying album its a mixtape, too lazy to edit]

BOYS.[Bittersweet]

I have been thinking about this for some time now. I'm voicing my opinion and I would love to hear you guys opinion too. It's about men or really boys. I'm not blaming boys for this and that I'm blaming mothers.

Yes there is a HUGE lack of fathers but just like everything else in nature you adjust. Natural selection and Survival of the fittest.

How many times have I heard "Men ain't shit" and all the other bullshit women put up with. I've had my front row seat to many disasters and such. Yet when these women have boy children instead of growing up your son for a woman you grow them up for yourselves. Mothers baby their sons and handicap them for the world.

Some of you may have had experiences where things you wouldn't get away with your brother would.

Example.

My grandma was a strict woman and she knew how to keep house all of us would know how to clean every single room, but when it came to the bathroom my cousin Jason would have leniency.

For what? He's a man and that's a woman's job.

WTF?

She would baby my cousin because he is a man and she is supposed to take care of him as a woman. Nothing is wrong by supporting your man and being by his side, taking care of him and such. My grandma is totally right in viewing it that way. Here's the problem that leads us to the bullshit. He isn't YOUR man. He isn't grown, he isn't going to fill that gap that many men before didn't do.

I know I opening a can of worms but its the truth and many of these mothers don't wanna hear it. Your son is not your man. You grow your children for the world and not for yourselves.

I didn't understand the reason he shouldn't clean the bathroom. He uses it. He demands it be clean yet and still he won't clean it?

To this day he will get away with things I will always get chastise even though we are doing the same exact thing.

My grandma is the OD christian and I watch the music I play around. My cousin Jason will blast Hot 97 playing birthday sex and she will act like she doesn't speak that language. I play some pop music and I will never hear the end of it.

Some women will never find the man they want and hear they have the oppurtunity to make a man of their son. To bless the world with a real man, to make a partner for someone, to make a father. What do they do? They become selfish and subconsiously treat their son like precious gifts because they're the only male that will STAY.

How many times have you seen boys slide and get off easily while his sisters get the full extent of punishment without mercy. Boys who are babied and given everything. Boys who do absolutely nothing with their lives and their mothers willingly let them stay in her house FOREVER. [If it was a woman living this long with her mother, that mother would of open her mouth a long tome ago]

They become these selfish, self absorbed, people. They expect the same treatment that they got from their mother from girlfriends and lovers.

I will make this a continuing post like a little segment or some shit cause this is really bugging me. I will discover the meaning. The reason. If you got any opinions plz drop 'em. I will take them all in consideration.

OMG Why?

Why do men date women with children [nothing is wrong with that] and show so much love and attention to the children. Yet and still they have their own children and forgot what they look like?

Why do people dress their little kids in hard leathers and jordans knowing that they're kids?

Why do they girls with the most stretchmarks on her lower back [We all have strechmarks ] always have the lowrider jeans?

Why are you wearing baggy leggings and you walk like a lego block and you boxers are showing and they're kinda see through so I'm seeing ass cheeks....Is that cute in your mind?

Why do girls continue to slick down hair and making long ponytails knowing that all they're sides are gone? [now is the time for that famous bang haircut]

You have any things that are befuddling you?

Wisdom Tooth: What is so Wise?

All the way at the back the little gap.

Now in the 2nd pic I pulled my cheek back that little dangling thing connected to my cheek it is my GUMS!!!! It lifted off. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!My wisdom tooth is growing on my left side and its disgusting. I went into the mirror to and took a flashlight. You know towards the end of your gums your cheek is connected to it. well the top part of my gum is lifting off and still connected to my cheek and I can see the imprint of my tooth rising up. My cheek is swollen and I keep biting the inside when I eat. What the fuck? I have enough teeth. I mean do I really need a fourth molar?

I'm 20. I thought I was done with the tooth saga?

A Rainy Day.

It rained. I had flats on. The Stupidity.

Aww Feeling kinda rejected right about now. I had an interview at City Island. It was part time and 11 dollars an hour. I failed miserably. It was making wire wrapping Jewelry which I think is so cool. Basically I just followed what she did and if I picked up quickly....

TAAADAAA I would get the job.

Simply right? the odds were against me.

* She was right handed, I'm left handed [You ever try mimic someone and the opposite side you are bound to fumble]

*My glasses broke, I'm blind without them. Im working with little ass beads.

I didn't get the job and had to proceed to get my ass home. Defeated.

She did say she liked my outfit. I liked it too.

Anyways back to the drawing board..........literally

Anyways I'm trying to learn how to do curly hair and afro curls and "ethnic" hair. All these tutorials are straight and wavy. I'm gonna havve to teach myself once again.

Goodnite.

Tattoo.

No one told me you would itch so bad.....

But I dear not scratch you. You feel like braille.

Some Drawings[Sweet]

My Brother Seth
Praticing an Eye
Sasha [Anti Matter] Growlls LOL
Me. A little cartoonish

I haven't uploaded these in a millenia but here's some of my drawings from last year around this time.

Enjoy Muahz