Renaissance:2009-2010

2009 was full of bullshit, growing pains and love. I spent the first half of my year going nowhere, just waiting, waiting for my opportunity and 2009 did not have it. By July I had lost all faith in people. I believed that people would let you down no matter what. Everyone nowadays just look out for themselves and fuck over the rest.

My relationship with Joshua was based off a lie and I didn't get the memo. I thought he was my rock but even he fell off the wayside. I was out of school and work. I felt like I had no real friends ( with the exception of a few) I felt this overwhelming pressure from everyone. I didn't know how to solve my problems. I tried what I thought was would work for me. It never worked out. I'm a faithful, caring, bitchy, selfless person and people stepped on me. I felt alone and hurt. I felt like I was wasting my life, like I was helping family and friends to reach their goals. My goals and my dreams were there but I couldn't reach them. At one point I just felt stuck, lost and confused.

I had reached the beginning of adulthood.

I am a fighter, I was trying to do what was right, I was doing what was best for a person like me.

I was doing everything wrong. I was too concerned with what I'm suppose be at in my life.

Other people who were 20, I was watching wondering how come I'm not doing what they're doing.

How come I couldn't find a job?

How come I don't enjoy school?

Why can't I make friends as easily as other people?

Why do they stare?

Why can't I move out my Mom's Home as yet?

Then I realized that I'm not everyone else. I'm never on the same level as other people. So why would I pressure myself and give myself such goals? I was trying to fit in and stand out at the same time. Everyone else was waiting too.

They were expecting and judging and I let them.

I let them.

Now I'm doing what's in my heart. Anything my heart desires I do, relax its nothing too damaging or self inflicting. I'm paving my own path since no path is open for me as yet. Too many times I held back because I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I didn't do what I wanted because it would be frowned upon. I did this and only locked down my heart desires, while people stepped on me.

I'm free from myself.

2010 is coming up and I'm going to rock the shit out of this new year.

Today is the beginning of my Revolution.

Today is my Renaissance!

+plus I've always been a late bloomer :)

Happy Thanksgiving

Now's the time to sit down with family, to be thankful, to eat and laugh. Everyone is dressed up and showing they're best foot forward. People are dancing to music and drooling for their favorite dishes only Mom can make. We all bow our heads round the dinner table, the couches or wherever you celebrate. We thank and give our love to God and one another and we always miss out on saying thanks to....

the pilgrims for bringing small pox to the Natives and almost killing them physically and then they killed them emotionally, spiritually and physically. Yea, Let's say thanks.....

Naw I'm just kidding folks. 

Stuff your faces and Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!

 Do Natives celebrate Thanksgiving?

Choose Love

WTF sideways again, too lazy

While I was gone I fell in love. *le sigh* 

I'm Good[Sweet]

Its sideways *shrugs, scratches butt*

Hey nigglets, Its been awhile, a long while and I know, I know, how weird of me not to post on some bullshit going on in my life. Honestly, there's been some serious shit going on in my life and God was testing my faith to the fullest. I really didn't feel like writing for the simple fact that I really didn't feel inspired by anything going on. 

Today I was inspired and now I'm back on my grind being my shitty, funny, unapologetic self. I will slowly tell ya'll the nitty gritty when I'm comfortable but until then we'll act like the last two months I was posting my ass off lol

Let the Games Commence

p.s. FUCK you satan, that is all

I just called...

Hey It's November. I'll post some pictures of my endeavors while I left my blog abandoned. My Mac had other plans and the hard drive gave up. It just felt wrong to write on something else besides my baby. My sister got her macbook fixed so we good money in the mean time. Halloween wasn't spectacular but I had a laid back night. Umm I decided instead of a graphic designer I am going to be a tattoo artist. Nabisco *DING* 

Alrite I'm going to bed I have school in the morning.

Wanted: Jeremy Scott Spring 2010

I am going to kidnap this man. This sneaker is glorious. Winter just got here :/. I would walk with my head down all the time with these sneakers on. Just so I can enjoy them with the public LOL

via highsnobette

Facebook Gangstas [Bitter]

Damn I wonder why these people exist, I mean honestly, They say to fight with words but this shit is ridiculous. Now we all have our facebook gangstas. People who feel updating their status with iffy subliminal shit is waaaayyy better than actually confronting the situation instead they act like a pussy.

Lawd God.

I know, I know

No, You don't know. Why these parasites? Go away, your like an STD nobody wants you.

Damn. BURN! You need to calm down.

I'm sick of this. Go do something. In fact all of you "STDs" go away.

Gotta inform the people.

I know so you can protect yourselves from these STDs.

Look on the bright side your spreading the knowledge so people...

Can wear life condoms and enjoy safe success everytime.

LOL.

Wait do we say LOL in our minds too?

IDK nigga, we're only ONE person.

Ugh you know what makes it worse when people comment knowing damn well what's up and reply with LOL and dumb simple shit, like "Yea" and "You're too much". I feel like the STD is forming around my profile closing in. Thankfully I have the delete button. I would be an asshole, if I just hack in you guys shit and deleted everything.

We all saw what happened with Mariah Carey and Eminem. smh x9 I mean if you guys spent so much time trying to be vague and precise enough to make a status to raise eyebrows. Imagine what you can do if you put you guys mind to something positive! Read a Philosophy book, see a therapist, make some cookies, something....

"I tried to ignore him and talk to the Lord

Pray for him, cause some fools just love to perform

You know the type loud as a motor bike

But wouldn't bust a grape in a fruit fight"

Once Again, STOP the madness. Please its distasteful, send me a message if ya'll feel some sort of way. Let's kick it old school, and maybe ya'll can talk. FACE TO FACE *shrugs, flicks a booger*

...I'm Jus' Sayin'

January 1st, just got bad LOL .....I think that's an FB status example of a bitch move. tee hee.

Kid Sister [Sweet]

Webster Hall

November 27th.

Kid Sister.

Be There.

Nails Did.

Done.

Miscommunication.Wash. Repeat.

I think Saturday Night was a turning point for me and I'm excited to see where this adventure will take me. I don't wanna jink things just yet.

I honestly thought Adam was a controlling man and I wasn't waiting for the abusive parts. I figured out why he was acting funny and the sudden switch to his persona. He had feelings. Boys. I swear to GOD they make everything more complicated than it is. You're acting like a jackass because you figured out you really like me, maybe even love me. Pure stupidity, but then again when have I acted normal when smitten with someone.

Saturday nite we were suppose to go out. I got caught up, I still wanted to meet him but I didn't know If I would make it. He got scared and thought something had happened to me. He then proceeded to call up his goons and Lawdhavemercy. It wasn't helping that I wasn't picking up the phone and hanging up on him. Then my phone picked up and he heard a man he never heard before and then he really got paranoid. I really thought his recent behaviour was signs of an abusive man. I really wasn't ready for a Chris "takeyoudown" Brown.

Le sigh*

Moving on, I would like to make a public announcement. Rihanna is the only thing I look to forward to. Can we step out the box fashion wise? This is for all the upcoming celebrities and current ones I'm looking at. Please you have money and no real responsibility. They have all this cool shit designers are designing for people unike me (people with money and fame) and ya'll are opting to wear jeans and a tshirt EVERYDAY! Get interesting. If I wanted to look at pretty long hair bitches with sparkly dresses in my sight all the time I would go to the Barbie aisle in TOY R US. Thank you That is all.

Megan So Good

My favorite leotard has grace Megan's body and the cover of Rolling Stone maybe then people will stop staring when I wear this....I doubt it lol. I did another post on this AA[american apparel] Bodysuit way back click here

Tee Hee

I like someone a lot. Its strange how things change....

"J" [Bitter/Sweet]

On Tuesday, I came to get the mail and I got a personal letter. I was excited, I never really got a letter old school style. I found it funny it had no return address. I feverishly opened to see what was inside. It was a newspaper clipping and a post-it attached to it. The post-it said

Shoshannah call now!!!

-J

It was an article for a car sale. Not any car sale but a 99$ dollar one. I was like "Bullshit". Really?! Cars for 99 dollars? I have shoes that cost more than that. It was going to happen this saturday and registration was thursday. After I read the article, mind you I'm still in my small ass lobby frozen by the staircase, I went upstairs told my mom and she examined the envelope. She said it never went to the post office someone dropped it in the mailbox.

I felt like I was playing Blue's Clues

*Its a J name

*Person knew where I live

*Person knew I was thinking bout getting a car.

The third clue is tricky cause I really didn't let people know I wanted a car, I don't even have my license.

I texted all my J friends no results

So I came to the conclusion that on sunday morning Jesus was reading the New Rochelle newspaper, enjoying his bread and butter with honey vanilla chamomile tea and came across this article. He remembered one of my prayers and clipped it out. He took a post-it from his desk, made a quick note and mailed it out. Jesus knew I was having a rough time he sent it out express Godmail also known as Gmail. There's no return address cause of that. Plus it was a regular handwriting he didn't want to give it all away. lol

Now I can get a car, but just like my life, dumb little bullshit things always prevent me from my destination. I need a license to register and I need some money smh. I can get my sister's godfather to do that. Now I had a plan for the money but thats another post. Ill find a way by saturday. This opportunity doesn't come often. I'm not letting it slip away.

Whoever J is ....

Thank You

My First Photoshop Exercise

My first exercise from class it was yellow. but somewhere when i saved it it turned blue idk. Whatevs. I'm learning slowly but surely lol

Hello!

I need a favor to ask. Any of you guys know of a good studio?

Driving Down The Block

This is my jam of the moment. Enjoy it's Saturday.

Pinkberry Stoop Kids

David and I

Today was a good day. We chilled in Soho/Union Square/Greenwich Village.

Sasha, David, Adam and I. It was just a regular shoot the shit day. I came up with some good marketing ideas and strategies.

Tuesday.

Tuesday's Highlights

Blah a speedy race to class with misty sweat all over my body. I'm hot and bothered but I made it on time. I pick a seat and breathe outwards blowing my hair. I put my bag on my thighs and pulled out my notebook, the printout and dig furiously for a pen. I relax and tense up again as I realized that my phone volume is still up. MY god what if people hear my ringtone in the middle of class, when there's an awkward silence passing

Katt Williams' voice

It might be bugs on the rest of you mugs, but aint no bugs on me ha ha

10 minutes pass

15 minutes pass

....... ..... .... . .... ........

......WTF are you serious?! Did I become moist and sweaty for no damn reason. Did I get up early for a stupid class and I could of been sleeping soundly in my bed? Fuck you CUNY Lehman! I went to your school cause I needed to go to school. Hunter I love you very dearly and I will be with you shortly, just give it time okay?

*My outfit made me proud today. I have never had so many eyeballs on me. Some old west indian lady "She said I had too much meat out" I proceeded to begin to curse this lady out. She kept saying the same thing and finally said "You got meat and thats a good thing, you look great" I thank her and we exchanged hugs.

*Adam and I discovered that his Cousin's dog is blind.

*I have never walked so much in my life.

*Saw Drop it Low video....SMH Chris Brown looks good and he was dancing like a bojangles trying to get his fans back. Dance, shake it out, Dance the Rihanna beatdown out of our memories. I'm sorry I was thinking rude thoughts I feel ashamed

WHY HE SO SEXY?!

Movie Trailers: Sherlock Holmes

I think I have a crush on Robert Downey. I like older men anyway.....

This is gonna be good. I love Christmas Time

Friday. [Sweet]

I went to a Birthday Party on Friday nite with Franchesca and Britney. It was a good night. There was some old black guy having the time if his life at the party too. No one knew how he got there but he did lol. He looked like something from the boondocks prolly that blind guy but way nicer.

Hair white and afro'd out. He was wearing a orange shirt and blue jeans. He was so wrong, he was right. People were dancing, I was getting ready and I was looking forward to the nite. I was looking good, smelling good and looking forward to be single to gawk and stare and grope and visually rape with my eyes. I felt like my eyes were getting fed. It was a good looking crowd and I was feeling myself. I was a panther on the prowl. Dancing is my favorite sport. My God bitch I'm good at it.

Shoshannah is dancing throw a spotlight on that. Light man swings spotlight. Camera zooms on her donk and they all watched in amazment as she ticked and tocked and swirl those hips. She throws on a growl and swings up from her lion mane and says silently

"Can You Handle This?"

^ There's my lion mane oh yes....

There was a skateboarder we smoke with. He was from Maine and he's living in Brooklyn. He took to the challenge.

"I will take the challenge and I will tame her too."

We started to dance. I thought he was cute, so I gave him a combo move. A BBB, then followed by A BA AB and then I gave him a XY ABAB. The music was fire *I was Anita Bakering [Giving him the best that I've got] him. He was handling it and actually doing it to his own rhythm. Which is a talent in itself. Some dude came up to us and told me to break his shit. LMAO

The song finished and I gave him a handclap, not many can handle my caboose. He did a little touchdown dance. I enjoyed myself. People bought drinks I didnt pay for shit.

Like everything in life you can't go too long without a little fuckery. Throughout the nite, I was harassed by some dude in a military cap. I hate those fucking hats. I was dancing and he asked if I wanted a drink. I said "No, but Thank You" He tried dancing with me. I politely danced away from him. He kept insisting that he buys me a drink and we talk. No.

He was harassing me to the point where Ricardo, the birthday boy had to talk to him. Even after that he was still thirsty. He was trying to grab my hand and whisk me away somewhere. Ugh, Nigga do I look like H2O? We finished the nite with Nathan's and a train ride home.

....I need a camera. I'm missing out on way too many memories. lol

Pixie Market: Dorothy Remix

BUY NOW

Wouldn't mind clicking these together. It won't take me home but it'll take me somewhere wonderful

Lust for Life. [Bitter/Sweet]

"I gotta certain lust for life....

...They tryin' to shoot down my flight, before it lands

"I would like to believe that I'm the shit...

It's not that hard, cause I am ;)" -Bang/Bang

Adam.

Finally Bish. I was wondering who the hell is Adam? LOL

Well Let's start at the beginning

wavy ass lines, more wavy ass lines, Wavy lines getting straighter to a flashback.

Adam was a cool dude. He was Funny. He was apart of discipleship. The same class Josh and I were taking among other friends. I always saw him and he always saw me. We didn't talk. Our circles meshed and this dude was super funny. I can't resist not having a funny friend. Can You? I officially spoke to him at a party last winter. He was posted up against a wall underneath a black light and I saw him not dancing and I can't have it. So I approached him and asked him to dance with him. He wouldn't, I dance on him anyway.

We smoked together that night.

It's amazing how things unfold by such a little moment in life.

Around March I asked him for his number, I wasn't cheating. Josh was right there. I was really looking for a guy friend because I never really had one because they always liked me more than a friend. no bish I'm not conceited theses are facts. So Anygay. We hung out with his friends and it was fun I felt like I finally had a niche, a clique, a posse, a squad, a friend family a...

Britney Meltdown....aight stand by, Do we have the clippers? Ok,We're on in 5. 4. 3. 2. 1

Adam was dropping bombs or he would like to call hints.

I thought he was a liar. A typical guy move, just corrupting his competition to get to me.

Wrong.

I found out through him. if you dont know click here

Honestly I was using him to get to the truth. I knew something was up. Josh was acting weird.

I was gonna move on. Call our friendship and tell him I no longer would like to subscribe.

I was going to quietly exit the scene. He wouldn't let me go. I would find a way and he would find a way. He won me over. He was the only one who tried to comfort me. Who actually knew what was going on in the clutter old cat lady that I called my brain. Adam played his cards right. I'm not oblivious to how men think. Something wouldn't let me shake him off completely. Something genuine, He was something like me. It was weird. I shared my shame with him.

I cried in front of him

He made me realize that I'm more than a woman. IDK how to explain. He made me realize my power and how I was lowering the settings so as to not to make people jealous, or angry, or just feel some type of way. For some reason people hate people who enjoy life lol. Worrying should I turn my shine down for the sake of others? He's my Nigga. I'm his Nigga.

We have so much in common and nothing in common.

Yes he's fucked up for opening his mouth...but let's be honest. Josh was never going to tell me. Adam liked me, and knew the truth. Plus I was Sherlock Holmes on his ass. Umm Like Duh...

Thank You Adam for making me laugh and walking me through this time in my life....

sidenote: I lost the iPod Josh got me for Christmas around March. I never lose anything. Here's my mom's advice, anything that breaks, gets lost, or etc. If it was a present from a loved one. Shit will ensue...always.

Fall Findings

Look at this. *Gasps* Imagine my skintone underneath this lovely bodysuit. I would wear it without a bra. Just some pasties, black Xs. Voila! Make My Christian Grandma Proud

Sneak Peak.

Welp I did another photoshoot on sunday. My Farewell to August 2009 you will be missed LOL. It was a fun day. We went to Fulton, shot in some alley thingy, lost Adam for like 40 minutes. We went to Wendy's and had a frosty. For some reason I have to get a frosty when I'm downtown. Then we went to the seaport and had a spectacular view of the Brooklyn Bridge and the water. We just stayed right there and enjoyed the view. As soon as we entered I stopped cause it was really beautiful. We let Aaron take some pictures and we just talked and reminiscence. I felt like a New Yorker which is rare for a New Yorker LOL. We rolled a blunt, pinkberry that is my favorite flavor. Aaron took us around the back alleys and we smoked. There was this guy briskly walking home and he shot past us. Then Adam started briskly walking/running too. It was a little race, it was so funn because he kept catching up to the guy. The guy is still walking/running and Adam is catching up and beats him and cuts him off when he turns the corner. *DEAD* I was watching the whole thing from afar and I couldn't breathe. Adam touched the camera and took some shots too. It was a nice relaxing day. I'm planning on going to the beach at night before it gets too cold. It would be OD fun. Ill upload the rest of the pics later. Also Ill do a critique of his work cause opinions matter to me. When I do a work of art I like people's opinions....well people that matter. Ill also recap on Emily's 24 hour BBQ.

A New Day Has Come

Celine Dion and her back up singers " ...A New Day Has Come, Anew DAY haaaaassss come, Let the rain come and wash away my tears" Her cirque de soleil dancers start prancing and flipping surrounding her and her manly stance commands the stage.

still singing in the background...

Let me begin by saying this.

August was the shit.

It was full of regret and pain. It was full of love. It was the beginning of self discovery. It was REAL.

I'm not saying my whole year has been fake...but It was based on a lie and thats like the sole of some payless sneakers, bound to crumble. I was too genuine for that.

I've had time to really analyze and realize and finally move on. This summer was suppose to be magical and full of love.

It wasn't.

At one point I was blaming myself. I was wondering how did I get here. I figured it out, not entirely but most of it.

Celine open her legs wide and the longest note in history was made......She wasn't even breaking a sweat. The music stopped.

The dancers stopped dancing in amazement. It was Celine in Vegas and everyone must bow down to the glory of her voice. little cherubs were flying out her mouth and it was reported that the US economy was stable thanks to Celine's prestine and crystal clear note.

I thank my family and my new friend Adam. I still didnt get to talk bout the mystery of Adam but I will LOL. He has made me laugh so hard...sometimes you need a good laugh after such a fucked up event in life. Why do you think poor/troubled people are the funniest? They're the ones with the most pain.

Celine faints...dancers let her fall on their backs as they crawl away with her. A standing ovation across the world happens and she breaks another record for the most people in a standing ovation.

CUNY Lehman Chronicles

I'm taking 5 classes this semester.

Intro to Digital Imaging

Intro to Printmaking
General Psychology
African American Literature
Contemporary Moral Issues

The so called advisor was bout to fuck up my schedule OD and give me a bunch of gen eds but all wack ones and add art classes so it would 4 classes of garbage and maybe 1 art class.

His exact words

"You can have up to 18 credits, So you can take your the freshman block and add 2 art classes"

As soon as this dude said this the record scratched in my mind.....

this nigga is an idiot.

yea he sure is.

he's deadass advising me to take almost 16-18 credits

You just came back to school

...I know whats wrong with him?

IDK, Its either he wants you to fail or do mediocre all around.

He doesn't even know if I can handle that many classes

SMH

It's suppose to be pleasure and pain, not pain, pain some more pain and here's an advil. Oh no.

"I have to register here or can I make my schedule?"

"You can register for classes online throught your eSims.....bleh blah blah, etc"

great imma do it online cause he's lost.

yea you would be going to school 5 days a week with 3 hour gaps and dumbness

yea I know

stupid advisor what is he advising schedule suicide

good one

So after I came home and signed up for classes. He gave me a guide and requirements for the college and my major and voila. I spent a good 2 hours fixing my schedule. I like the results. Everything is connected so I can use what I learned in one class to benefit the next class. Next semester is mostly gonna be math and science cause they mesh well.

Here's the best part

I get friday thru monday off. tee hee.

I knoooooowwwwwwww. jealous?

Rich People Shop Better: Gucci Fall 2009

WTF!!!!

....I'm going to cry now. No one cares bout the skinny chick to the right. Honestly They could of done without her...She kinda making the photo ugly. Those shoes, OMG, Those shoes. I would FIND somewhere to go If I had those.....Shit.Fuck.Damn. *Growlls and curses and runs away, plotting to press some ladies in the city*

Once Again....

Alrite if these vaporize somewhere Imma get somebody lol

Shit!

I have to repost the flickr pics from the photoshoot....this dude took them down ugh...

Emotionally Flavored People[Bitter/Sweet]

I'm losing track of time.

I don't know if thats a good or bad thing.

I want to inspire people.

...... Wouldn't it be cool if people had a main attribute throughout life and you can only find out when you die. Like Love, Anger, Sadness, Happiness, Laughter, Mystery, etc. Don't you find it amazing how no matter the situation people bring the same characteristic? Some people no matter how you feel make you calm and carefree? Some people always bring happiness, even if they're not happy themselves? Then your goal in life is to get your counterpart? Happiness must find sadness to bring balance to each other? Happy people always denies sadness in their life and fake it even when they're truly not happy. Sad people can't find a way out and when happiness is there, they deny it because they're afraid. They'll balance out each other.....like ying and yang....

Some women drive men crazy.....like Erykah Badu. Did you see the Before and After of Andre 3000 and Common? She changed them for the better. That's a bad woman, even after you part ways you never really left them. Some women bring the most negative effects out of men. I was just wondering like we're all different emotions and when we get together we make a mixture. It's late, I'm listening to Lust for Life by DRAKE. It was my soundtrack for the nite. Sleep is for our conscious. Our sub conscious frolick during the nite in our dreams. If we're up, that's when our raw emotions and wants come out. That's when I get in trouble......

Balmain: Fall 2009[Sweet]

This is Awesooooooommmmeee!

Photoshoot

Here's some flickas from the photoshoot. I didn't really like them. Well try, try again.

Brothers: Movie Trailer

Blacksummers'night: A Review

BLACKsummers'night is what we've been waiting for but we didn't really knew what we were waiting for. We listen to our ipods and something is missing. Soul, some depth, I'm not talking bout all the extra. Personally for me soul, jazz and etc. are too outdated its the same shit I remember back then. It's cool for you to do the soul thing but its 2009 do what soul would sound like NOW!! Very few know how to do that and Maxwell's album satisfies what I've been missing. I never really listen to Maxwell before cause I was listening to *Nsync at the time lol. I never get a whole album based off of the first single but I did it for Maxwell. I totally thank myself for taking a chance. This album is really good. It relaxes you, and it feels like waterwaves. The lyrics are awesome. The instrumentals don't over power his voice. It's fluid none of the tracks seem out of place. It's just.......GOOD.

Favorite Tracks

Stop the World

Cold

Fistful of Tears

9 out of 10

Funny Bitches [Bitter/Sweet]

I think people are angry at me and not because I did some dumb shit towards them. They get mad at me cause I do what I please and not what people expect me to do. I'm not easily subdued by bureaucratic bullshit and diplomacy. Its not built in me. In a way I understand. Things people work hard to obtain I usually get it without really trying and If I actually give a damn, no one will remember your ass. People try so hard to get at me without really getting at me. Which is funny to me. Just say your peace to my face and leave me be. Maybe its my blank stare. Here's a tip for all you lovely people

Anytime someone has some stigma against you, kill them kindness and not fake kindness genuine kindness. This shit pisses them off even more cause they have nothing against you. When you get angry you showing them that you care and you shouldn't because you should be focus on you and your interests.

...I know I know

Here's an example.

I was wearing my white wig and some hot ass outfit looking like a M.O.B. photoshoot. I show up and the girls are looking at me like I'm crazy. Secretly giggling and staring me down. I brush it off cause people have been smirking at me since birth, two years later they're wearing the same shit I was wearing 2 years ago. The thing that made it icing is there "boyfriends" are ready to scoop me up like ice cream. This one dude was staring so hard I felt uncomfortable. The Giggle Twins realize what's really going on and the giggling stops, now I can feel the tension in the air. I'm just vibing with the guys cause they mad cool. All of a sudden Giggle Twins' power must of deactivated cause now they want to be friends.......mmmmmhmmmm [BTW I'm not a thieving chicka. I don't believe in cheaters and I don't need to become one]

"People say things thinking other people are thinking it, when they know they don't even believe it themselves"

- Sumra 13, sister

Like people jus say well she's Shoshannah. LOL I'm my own adjective.

Someone approached me and commented on me and said "Shannah is one hand painted pink and the other white? [insert dumb giggle here]"

Let's evaluate.

I purposely painted my nails those colors. I didn't paint them in the dark and realized when I went outside I realized that I have committed a crime worthy of imprisonment.

You pointing it out does not make it funny. If anything you sound stupid because you know they're pink and white cause you said so, why ask the question?

My answer to this dumb question after these commercial breaks...


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and from viewers like you, thank you! soundtrack provided by Camp Lo's Uptown Saturday Night.

I simply did my "Uraslowbitch" face and said "....umm yeah" and turn my head towards someone worth my interest.


At the end of the day don't let anyone make you feel bad for being yourself.

Good Sleep [Sweet]

I've been going out too much lol, It's summer I'm trying to squeeze it in before school starts. It's good though but my ass never gets that good sleep.

That sleep when you don't actually know when you fell asleep.

That good sleep where you snore and you NEVER snore.

That good sleep where your pillow is soaked in saliva. and ur mouth is crusty.

That good sleep where you wake up and realized half the day is gone.

That good sleep where you don't think bout shit while lying in bed.

That good sleep where you didn't have a dream. Just blanked out.

I need me some of that good sleep.

High Times: Tricks

This is so cool. Enjoy

You a Mark Muthaphucka, I'm a Marksman

I'm only a couple of days away from bartending school and I'm mad excited.

Mini Goals

Bring in my financial Aid papers to Lehman

Fix my profile for CUNY cause it won't let me sign up for classes :/

Look bangin' for Aaron's Photoshoot. I think he's aiming for a grungy graffiti weird pretty thing.

Pick up Money from Franchesca

Finish my drawing

Learn how to do Smoke circles

Party and Bullshit

Love. Peace and SOOOUUUULLLLLL

p.s. That title really didnt have anything to do with wth im writing or that picture lol. Oh wells my blog, screw you with something hard and sandpapery, nah I love you guys